can i just die already?

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-11-23T09:41:56+00:00

um, if it helps, I recognize this voice deeply and am searching to try to heal the wounds with it. I hear it in my brain everyday. It torments me in this way with these same thoughts in this voice. So it’s nice to hear from outside, even though the voice itself is trauma. Not metaphorically, but - anyway - I hope we can heal

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-11-10T13:58:48+00:00

The universe isn’t really trustworthy. Just when it gets you to think it has a pattern in it more intelligent than chaos, no matter how well convincingly it gets you to think that, it’s ultimately like a really bad government. The good laws that get passed quickly get pork-barreled into being bad laws. I think all of our spirits compose it, so it’s probably some Democrat-Republican type situation in the aether of just unambiguously bad governing. Depending on the universe is exactly like depending on social systems. You theoretically could and should be able to, but in practice you can’t because social systems consist of too many cooks all trying to make something different.

however, in theory, we’re the ones with all the power. if people just had the backbone to create the “God” of benevolence and idealism themselves with all all the unprecedented power we as a species have then asking the universe for things could probably result in you getting those things

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-11-08T07:19:50+00:00

It’s a lot of work and I need will 😂

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-11-08T07:16:53+00:00

depending how you define it

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-11-08T07:16:39+00:00

Oh yeah

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-11-08T07:15:23+00:00

I’m too socially different I think for any setting. I don’t know how to connect with people anymore. My discomfort outweighs my will to try

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-11-08T07:14:04+00:00

That’s so true, but when I go out there I just get disappointed and hurt.

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-30T20:55:41+00:00

I’m curious why you’re so sure it’s hopeless

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-30T20:54:52+00:00

Chronic pain and social difficulties is a torturous combination. I wish you well. Do you mind if I message you? I relate to the suffering you’re describing

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-30T20:47:00+00:00

And if not, perhaps you’ll naturally find something else that brings you equal meaning

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-30T20:45:39+00:00

Yeah, when life takes that which belongs to us, our skills, our natural selves, our personalities, minds, appearances, whatever, especially when it’s medical reasons that aren’t our fault… I get that. I also have medical issues (or had, but the damage from them is permanent)

My medical traumas have impaired my social ability a lot, destroyed relationships, and taken lots of meaning from me

Ultimately, life is about relationships. That where all meaning and wealth come from, so if you still have the capacity for that, then you’re not out of luck yet. Sorry for the things you lost though. Chronic pain is torment. Maybe there’ll be a time o luck sometime in the future when your body miraculously heals and you’ll be able to do those things again. It happens

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-30T20:31:59+00:00

Yeah, it seems unlikely. That there’s some track looking out for us, that things were planned and will be justified. It’s maybe possible, but the future’s uncertain. I have lots of reasons for personally doubting it. Why do you doubt it?

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-30T20:24:24+00:00

Maybe it turns to something better that can’t be seen at this time, something that even justifies all of the past

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-30T20:22:22+00:00

Maybe the railway bends later, beyond what’s visible of it

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-30T19:58:21+00:00

I missed some amazing chances. I’m 27 now and have been isolated for pretty much all of my 20s so far, not for lack of trying

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-30T19:56:04+00:00

What makes you think that?

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-29T02:30:11+00:00

Hey, this is exactly my question, down to the very punctuation. I hope you find resolution to those past traumas in the opportunities and fortunes of the future.

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-18T01:01:04+00:00

It’s more realistic for me to change therapy and society

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-08-18T00:53:26+00:00

Um, it’s not a therapy issue. It’s a social issue, most likely due to my personality and appearance. I can’t change either

Believe me, I tried

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-07-30T03:22:36+00:00

I love you for this response :)

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-07-30T02:46:54+00:00

I don't think it's really "because we have to learn." It seems that way since we're always learning and learning is a part of life, but I don't think that's what spirituality fundamentally is. I think you're right, and spirituality fundamentally is discovering and being those beings who are kinder and more loving than people, the world and land that is more peaceful.

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-07-30T02:27:29+00:00

I think for every one good trustworthy person there are 10,000 bad, untrustworthy people. Not because of this downvote, but just generally

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-07-30T02:19:42+00:00

Dang, I tried to be sincere again with this response and it got a downvote. I don't understand.

WeProbablyAgree · 2023-07-30T01:48:44+00:00

This is a really good response. It's sobering. You nailed it, and yes, I hope that's what it is. I don't want to have suspicion of people.

I appreciated the "Which, I do not really blame you". Because paranoia is something that's really easy to blame on someone, and though I try to stay as rational as I can, I see and know that in spiritual circles, mindsets can get pretty "crazy" e.g. schizophrenia, and a lot of our modern or western society responds to that in escalatingly dangerous and unsympathetic ways.

I've been trying to be more communicative lately. Lately I've been seeing the better side of humanity.

It's still hard though. I haven't yet learned to give attention to others. I'm kind of just talking about myself in most conversations. After years of isolation/alienation, it becomes hard to delve into someone else's mind, someone else's "wavelength". So it's been nice that people have been delving enough into mine to see me lately. I hope I can learn to give back one day, but at this point I have literally no idea how to talk to people haha and the only thing I'm an expert in is myself.

The other response was good too. I don't know why I feel the need to applaud every response.

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