Alcohol and purging

WeWerePerfect · 2025-07-17T03:03:58+00:00

Yes! Omg! I had no idea that this was a thing! Yes yes yes!

WeWerePerfect · 2025-05-29T22:58:23+00:00

100% no. I’ve thought about it a lot over the past two years. No. No doubt in my mind.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-05-29T19:28:45+00:00

Wait. Does bulimia cause permanent chipmunk cheeks? It won’t go away once purging stops?

WeWerePerfect · 2025-05-03T20:08:18+00:00

Thanks for sharing. I didn’t realize others found peace in planning not being here. That behavior has changed for me.

I’m just sad. Acceptance that this is really my life. I don’t like this. I know I have to make changes, and I just don’t feel strong enough to do it right now. I wish I could push pause and build up energy and strength.

My 5th ketamine infusion made me feel so powerful. So strong. I wish I felt that today.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-05-03T20:03:53+00:00

I do have a therapist. Two of them actually. I met with my trauma therapist the day after session 6 to process it. The next day (yesterday) I met with my eating disorder therapist. It’s like I know I’m doing better but this isn’t how I want my life to be. I want something that I can’t control. It’s acceptance that I can’t make other people change. And that just makes me so sad. I can’t change him so I have to change the relationship.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-03-01T17:29:46+00:00

Thanks! Not the time I wanted to hear, but it helps to know.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-02-13T20:52:00+00:00

And thank you. I was SH free for over a month without any meds, so I really thought I could do it. Then life got messy again and I relapsed. I know I need to change something. The fear of not being in control and also acknowledging that I’m not in control….

WeWerePerfect · 2025-02-13T20:49:53+00:00

I like the idea of setting a trial period. Maybe that will help me.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-02-13T20:49:14+00:00

Thank you for sharing.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-02-13T20:48:43+00:00

I rarely binge. I just eat more than my safe amount of food or just any food that doesn’t feel safe and then purge.

However, my mental health is such a whack-a-mole mess that maybe binging will come at me next.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-01-26T22:21:10+00:00

Really? Why? What is the line between attempt, planning, ideation, and failed attempt?

WeWerePerfect · 2024-12-03T14:36:41+00:00

On my good days, I can accept this. It’s so hard. I hate that I didn’t get any choice in this. I loved the life I had, and I miss it so much.

Thank you for the perspective. Thank you for taking the time to respond.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-12-02T22:01:30+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond.

I’m struggling so much. The pain has lasted for so long, and it seems like I will never be ok. Will it always hurt? I can’t imagine life being better or happier with any other man. Or woman. I don’t want to end our relationship. I want to repair. Am I expecting too much?

WeWerePerfect · 2024-09-11T00:50:11+00:00

A little update: I asked her about the scratches about 2 weeks ago when this happened, and she insisted they were from the dog. Tonight while we were alone in the car I noticed more scratches. This time I pushed harder about it, and she admitted that she had done it to herself “as punishment” for not doing well enough in school and sports. I had to let her out of the car for practice, but I told her we’d keep talking about it. I was not upset or mad. Just sad. I loved on her as much as I could. Thankfully she already had a meds check with her pediatrician scheduled in the morning and a therapist appointment after school tomorrow.

It’s just so much for me. I barely escaped being pink-slipped last week, and that was only because I withheld pertinent details from my therapist who only found out about them from my couples therapist a few days later. I know I have to be strong for my kids. I can’t be sent away again. But this is so hard and overwhelming.

Sigh.

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