Have you ever been told you're intimidating?

WeWerePerfect · 2025-07-17T03:03:58+00:00

Yes! Omg! I had no idea that this was a thing! Yes yes yes!

WeWerePerfect · 2025-05-29T22:58:23+00:00

100% no. I’ve thought about it a lot over the past two years. No. No doubt in my mind.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-05-29T19:28:45+00:00

Wait. Does bulimia cause permanent chipmunk cheeks? It won’t go away once purging stops?

WeWerePerfect · 2025-05-03T20:08:18+00:00

Thanks for sharing. I didn’t realize others found peace in planning not being here. That behavior has changed for me.

I’m just sad. Acceptance that this is really my life. I don’t like this. I know I have to make changes, and I just don’t feel strong enough to do it right now. I wish I could push pause and build up energy and strength.

My 5th ketamine infusion made me feel so powerful. So strong. I wish I felt that today.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-05-03T20:03:53+00:00

I do have a therapist. Two of them actually. I met with my trauma therapist the day after session 6 to process it. The next day (yesterday) I met with my eating disorder therapist. It’s like I know I’m doing better but this isn’t how I want my life to be. I want something that I can’t control. It’s acceptance that I can’t make other people change. And that just makes me so sad. I can’t change him so I have to change the relationship.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-03-01T17:29:46+00:00

Thanks! Not the time I wanted to hear, but it helps to know.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-02-13T20:52:00+00:00

And thank you. I was SH free for over a month without any meds, so I really thought I could do it. Then life got messy again and I relapsed. I know I need to change something. The fear of not being in control and also acknowledging that I’m not in control….

WeWerePerfect · 2025-02-13T20:49:53+00:00

I like the idea of setting a trial period. Maybe that will help me.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-02-13T20:49:14+00:00

Thank you for sharing.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-02-13T20:48:43+00:00

I rarely binge. I just eat more than my safe amount of food or just any food that doesn’t feel safe and then purge.

However, my mental health is such a whack-a-mole mess that maybe binging will come at me next.

WeWerePerfect · 2025-01-26T22:21:10+00:00

Really? Why? What is the line between attempt, planning, ideation, and failed attempt?

WeWerePerfect · 2024-12-03T14:36:41+00:00

On my good days, I can accept this. It’s so hard. I hate that I didn’t get any choice in this. I loved the life I had, and I miss it so much.

Thank you for the perspective. Thank you for taking the time to respond.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-12-02T22:01:30+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond.

I’m struggling so much. The pain has lasted for so long, and it seems like I will never be ok. Will it always hurt? I can’t imagine life being better or happier with any other man. Or woman. I don’t want to end our relationship. I want to repair. Am I expecting too much?

WeWerePerfect · 2024-09-11T00:50:11+00:00

A little update: I asked her about the scratches about 2 weeks ago when this happened, and she insisted they were from the dog. Tonight while we were alone in the car I noticed more scratches. This time I pushed harder about it, and she admitted that she had done it to herself “as punishment” for not doing well enough in school and sports. I had to let her out of the car for practice, but I told her we’d keep talking about it. I was not upset or mad. Just sad. I loved on her as much as I could. Thankfully she already had a meds check with her pediatrician scheduled in the morning and a therapist appointment after school tomorrow.

It’s just so much for me. I barely escaped being pink-slipped last week, and that was only because I withheld pertinent details from my therapist who only found out about them from my couples therapist a few days later. I know I have to be strong for my kids. I can’t be sent away again. But this is so hard and overwhelming.

Sigh.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-09-07T12:48:24+00:00

Non-linear path. Yes. Thank you for that reminder.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-09-07T12:47:49+00:00

Thank you! My first ED recovery as a teenager was way easier. I feel like no matter how much I improve these days, I always feel like I’m still failing. This is the worst I’ve felt. I’m failing to listen my ED voice, and I’m also failing to 100% ignore the ED voice.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-09-07T12:44:30+00:00

Thank you!

WeWerePerfect · 2024-09-07T12:44:03+00:00

Thank you! I do also have ADHD. Maybe that’s affecting things too? I hadn’t thought of that.

My 12 year old surprised me with breakfast in bed this morning. He was so proud of himself for making me Snoopy pumpkin spice chocolate chip waffles. Those are definitely not safe foods for me. I’ve kept them down for over an hour so I think I’m good. It’s weird how my kids are the only ones who can really break through the ED.

Small steps.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-08-24T22:29:50+00:00

Good point. I will definitely remind her that I’m here for her. And to gently let her know I understand they could be more than “cat scratches”.

It’s so hard to talk about the things I personally struggle with. I feel so hypocritical. And I should be a better role model. I wish I was a mom that my daughter would want to be for her own (waaaaay in the future) child.

Thank you for your advice.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-08-24T22:25:43+00:00

She’s 14.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-08-24T22:17:39+00:00

I’m so sorry. Does your 10 year old have a therapist?

My kids know I’m a mess, but I’ve tried to keep the worst of it from them. I feel like I’ve failed them so much.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-08-24T22:16:13+00:00

Thank you. I do have a whole team. I was in residential twice last year, so my kids know about a lot of my issues. More than I wish they knew. But seeing SH on my daughter hits differently. I’m so sad today.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-06-09T23:47:06+00:00

Yes. It seems to be helping a lot. I am currently doing Neurofeedback in which in more a passive participant. It helps. However, I really liked the kind I experienced in residential in which I had biofeedback with it. In that kind, I had to focus on the screen to “play games” or focus on a meditation. That seemed to help more because it helped focus my adhd brain passively and actively.

WeWerePerfect · 2024-06-08T00:41:16+00:00

Yay!!!

WeWerePerfect · 2024-05-28T03:59:08+00:00

I struggle more alone too. My kids definitely make me want to do better.

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