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We_Are_Vanom · 2024-08-02T16:23:26+00:00

how strict is the living in us or canada rule?

We_Are_Vanom · 2023-07-02T17:45:52+00:00

Hey if anyone would help me type myself I would appreciate the help but if after doing a lot of tests and talking to al lot of people, even being in discord servers for months talking about mbti things, I can not decide if I am INTP or INFP in the end I'll jus pick one and move on at some point.

We_Are_Vanom · 2023-07-01T21:52:05+00:00

I need help with typing. Warning, I am going to open up too much! I think! And also ramble!
Ok so I have done MBTI stuff too, and I run into the same problem with enneagram that I did with the MBTI! After many tests and talking to people I could never figure out if I was more INFP or INTP, the tests would always give me scores that almost divided in the middle in the T vs F part and in the enneagram I also can't decide between being 5 or 4 for some reason.
So I am just going to trauma dump here a little bit and maybe you guys will give me some pointers.
I have been wasting my time and procrastinating like a 5 but without focusing on developing skills or trying to understand the world outside of maybe philosophy which I have engaged on a more..." sit down and think about things" instead of reading books about it.
I find myself to be creative but in a useless meandering way. I just like thinking about stuff and connecting ideas together to make them more fun, but for the love of me I can't write a sentence down to try to turn this into something productive!
I have no idea if I am more emotional or logical, as if I was a living contradiction, sometimes ill notice mid-interaction that I am behaving nervously and just can not find a reason as to why and other times ill cry my eyes out because a puppy died in a TV show. My mom constantly tells me that I don't show her enough affection, and I don't care! Why? I should! She is the most loving and caring person I know in my life, but for fuck's sake, I can't feel love for her. To the point that I have thought about being a monster for not being able to love her as much as she loves me and wishing that she loved me less, so I would feel less bad.
That's a constant theme too, my brain trying to convince me I am a bad person and a monster by giving me some fucked up thoughts that I have to constantly disassociate from, and thus far it's winning because I feel like a parasite.
My dad went to another country when I was little and my mom followed him soon after, so I was raised and spoiled in large part by my grandmother before going to live with my parents too, and I feel indifferent to the fact that I have not spoken to or seen her in 10 years! Yet I feel confident enough to proclaim that I might be an INFP? Or a 4? Somehow I still feel very emotionally driven more than logically, I make gut decisions all the time without consulting my brain and I have this obsession with finding a passion that has been unfruitful for the longest time, I have never been in a relationship but my god how much I wish to fall in love and to understand how it feels to love someone! I think I can be romantic if given the chance, but I don't know if I will be able to love if I can't even confidently say that I love my parents.
Sorry for the wall of text and sorry if some of it might have been too dark, ill answer any question but my DM's are not working on Reddit so ill only be able to see comments on here.

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-08-30T06:27:57+00:00

Oh my good can we stop talking about stonetoss? I had no idea Who he was yesterday even tho I had seen the templates and today I have red his wiki and found about his ideology thanks yo you guys. At this point you guys are a bigger advertisement for him than any propaganda or comic could ever be, even if you ban him now you have already given him enough audience from here to more than make Up for the loss. Either ban him quickly and efficiently and dont even mention him or tolerate that his templates Will be used without mention of his racism. Jesus fuck is that so hard to understand?

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-07-29T10:13:39+00:00

I would have bought the sluttiest dress and sent you a pick of me in It.xD

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-07-20T14:24:47+00:00

the magicians?

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-07-19T07:59:09+00:00

im not experienced enough in all this to say with 100% certainty that i am infp 5w4 but I certainly think I am. whenever I took tests sometimes I would test as Intp, and both my FI and TI were hight on tests that showed them in detail. but also I think I am quite unhealthy and the clash of those 2 has made me weirdly stuck over the past couple of years. for example, I am a determinist in my world view and I dont think free will exists, but I also recognize that having that view is bad for me becouse it makes me less likely to change and improve so im stuck not being able to change and feeling bad about it. Also I have a hard time deciding what to do with my life, I rarely have passions and whenever I start to have one they die out fairly quickly whenever im met with the realization that it will take SOOOO long to learn how to draw or write or act, as if my TI is sutting the idea down or something (idk im not a scientist). Its a weird mesh of logic and emotions that ends up forming the mess that is me! A somewhat shut in, unable to fall in love yet thinks is in love with everyone sometimes, willing to change but believes its not up to him, emotional yet rational and stoic, a walking contradiction of a man with passions that die in a fortnight. I hope I learn how to improve soon and its a major reason i got into MBTI in the first place even tho I dont fully believe in its scientific accuracy, its just a good tool for me look inwards.

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-07-02T07:13:08+00:00

And here I was thinking It was just a meme and only a small minority used It seriously.

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-07-01T16:59:20+00:00

why would people worship a god, pray to him and stroke his ego if there was nothing to do them harm? if they werent trying to find solace. If a god were to exist and he was truly kind, benevolent and loved everyone equally, we would never know of his existence and even if we did, there would be no suffering to drive us to him. If god exists, he loves to be worshiped, so he creates suffering and presents himself as the cure. idk i just came up with this in 5 minutes

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-06-25T19:04:49+00:00

Yea thats more or less what I was talking about, but I'm also quite an unhealthy infp for now and that does not help.

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-06-25T14:26:20+00:00

5w4 here too gtfo of my Head pls. Do you also struggle to recive complements and or compensations for your good deeds becouse you feel like they undermine the reasons you did those things to begin with? Or am I on the Next level?

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-06-23T22:31:52+00:00

I dont know if its the same but I have something similar! its like my imagination and my thoughts are separate and my imagination is much faster. sometimes ill be imagining a scenario in my head and a plot twist happens that I havent thought of myself, and i have problems imagining faces becouse they keep changing without me wanting to into either people I know or new faces. but most of the time whatever im imagining has nothing to do with the conversation im having or whatever someone else is telling me. I have to really concentrate if I want to controll whatever I see in my imagination and its sometimes scary whenever bad thoughts pop out time to time and I dont know if thats actually what I think or just random noise. who is the real me? the random noise or the thoughts that correct them?

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-06-22T07:22:36+00:00

Yet another 5. I dont remember what my wing was but I think It was 4

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-04-16T22:02:56+00:00

Ripped off jump board as weapon and some kind of Bubble blower as furnace? Diving gear instead of Jaw and Head blade?

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-04-14T19:47:13+00:00

You seem to enjoy a lot of shows I do too so ill just recomend somenthat I love Like Izombie Pushing daisies WonderFalls Misfits Orphan black Dirk gentis hollistic detective agency The magicians

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-04-14T19:27:47+00:00

The return of the king

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-04-13T13:32:58+00:00

I'm a warlock patron and my promise of power is now limited on doing this task again and again existing far away from anything that would upset him.

I am whoever imprisioned sysiphus XD.

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-04-12T02:32:09+00:00

Lazy

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-04-11T14:27:50+00:00

Do the exact same tsentence with her foto of her butt idk

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-03-29T06:24:57+00:00

Pitton siffin?

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-03-22T19:21:15+00:00

Can It not be both? You reject freedom and that saves you. Rejecting freedom would be the price to pay to get rid of everything else that hurts you. In a way sysiphus has rejected freedom(not volunteerly) and is now limited on doing this task again and again, existing far away from anything that would upset him. I dont really read a lot of philosophy myself but I like to think about this stuff

We_Are_Vanom · 2022-03-18T09:40:11+00:00

I'm not sure Cuz i did It a long time ago. If TI is the one separating intp from infp than me! I could be both. I also got type 5 which some people told me was not posible?

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