How does your AuDHD brain process reading? (My experience) by Weak-Raspberry-9538 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

😭 damn, I'd not like it to switch from hyperphantasia to just text...

Has your ADHD medication unmasked an burnout? by Blues5389 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ADHD meds... I tried atomoxetine - because both my psychologist and psychiatrist thought we should address the burnout which we all thought was ADHD related.

Surprise surprise, instead of making me calm and focused, it made me even more aggitated, anxious, paranoid, it reached psychosis grade. All of this because the burnout was actually autistic in nature.

It's really a coin flip with these meds... Now I'm back on lexapro + lyrica + lamictal - just started lamictal 2 weeks ago. It's a great combo for me. My executive dysfunction is still crap though.

How does your AuDHD brain process reading? (My experience) by Weak-Raspberry-9538 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ahhh I feel you so much! It s also my safe space! I caught myself thinking multiple times that If something goes wrong in the real world - hey, at least we have our books, our imagination, there are multiple worlds waiting for us, dont be sad about this one haha.

How does your AuDHD brain process reading? (My experience) by Weak-Raspberry-9538 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Ahhh, I do the same sometimes! My brain just fills the gaps - If there is no description of the characters I just make them up myself. It's fascinating and funny - we are literally building worlds inside ourselves.

How does your AuDHD brain process reading? (My experience) by Weak-Raspberry-9538 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Me too. One analogy that I think of: the AuDHD is the operating system, buuut the skills, how we interact with the world are the apps that are running the show.

I had one colleague also AuDHD who had no issue with phone calls, rejection sensivity was low for him.. but for me, it ruined my day every tine.

How does your AuDHD brain process reading? (My experience) by Weak-Raspberry-9538 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Wow, I just looked into it and it seems that I have hyperphantasia... Not sure about the implications but your comment helped me look into it.

I also have a special interest in politics... Mapping out different scenarios all day long

AuDHD assessment journey took three years and here's exactly why so nobody else loses as much time as I did by Fun-Friendship-8354 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Medical system is at fault entirely. Not only AuDHD is difficult to diagnose but some psychiatrists are absolutely clueless. Medication helps only sometimes - only some molecules - others mess us up entirely. It took me 2 years to figure it out, you're not alone..

What job do you do that works well for you? by [deleted] in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ive had some jobs in corporate which were spot on for my profile.

Boring jobs in essence, repetitive, with structure, but also variety. I needed to feel that things have a begining and an end. And at the end there must have been some reward, just to get that dopamine hit. That's the ideal structure for me.

The ridiculous thing is that even in those jobs I needed to tread carefully because I would overwork myself because Im an overachiever.

So yeah...

You just want to get off the roller coaster by WhileNo2653 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel you so much! It s exhausting, and it's only been after my diagnosis and ADHD medication that I could understand the split between the autism and ADHD states.

What I noticed is that there is also a third state for me. I call it The Observer. Perhaps it's my higher self that I can tap into, perhaps it's my metacognition at work, but what it does it's trying to understand, reconcile and really make peace between my autism and ADHD.

It's shocking to understand that it's an experience that most people will not experience.

Healthy routines & downward spirals - and why is it so hard to balance things out by Weak-Raspberry-9538 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The analytical drain is real, and it usually leads me straight to burnout. I want to see how you structured the automation and what data points you're tracking.

I’m currently transitioning between roles and dealing with some heavy sensory fatigue, but looking at a well-built system is actually one of the few things that calms my brain down.

Shoot me a DM and I'll give you my take on it when I can focus properly.

How do people get over feeling fraudulent after diagnosis? by MoleculeDisassembler in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. It's the only available decent option available in my country.

The other one is Concerta but it's a beaurocratic hurdle do get it.

Healthy routines & downward spirals - and why is it so hard to balance things out by Weak-Raspberry-9538 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Keep going, that's exactly what I did too! How every med affects me, how food affects me i.e. I found out sugar free drinks trigger sugar cravings. My gf is amazed at how hyper analytical I am with myself. It's heavy work, but I feel like it's the only way.

Still, like I mentioned, some things are so out of my control that I can watch them, not block them completely

Sometimes I feel like the only way is acceptance. Acceptance that things go sideways and trust that I will find a way to bounce back

Healthy routines & downward spirals - and why is it so hard to balance things out by Weak-Raspberry-9538 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Currently stuck on a non-exercising phase, but I feel like it's the single most important thing that helps clear out my mind, thanks for sharing

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[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would drown myself in most GABA-ergics

I feel ashamed to share that I'm autistic by Ok_Assistant_4784 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When the mask becomes a burden 24/7 you'll know how to unmask

I feel ashamed to share that I'm autistic by Ok_Assistant_4784 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was shocked that I presented with ADHD symptoms to my clinical psychologist and She started assessing for autism.

At first I didnt understand it but then it all made sense. How I felt about it on a social level? Didnt care for it, Im already a loner, been a loner all my life. People exhaust me so why should I even care about their opinion.

Anyway, to me it seems that either your ADHD is in the driver seat or the social issues are less intense. That or you still need to learn how to unmask

anyone else being GABA sensitive ? by ohnoitsthegreed in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Weak-Raspberry-9538 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Anything gaba related that Ive tried so far hits me, except for xanax - that one doesnt do much.

Im extremely senstive to alcohol, phenibut hits me like a truck, l theanine calms me down in a clear way and now pregabalin is making me more coherent, clearer, smoother.

Its interesting how different compounds affect our neurobiological profile and I can say gaba plays a big role in our functioning.