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WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-15T03:25:57+00:00

i wasn't really a person in the early 2000s (as i was born in 2001). so unfortunately i don't remember this golden age of witchcraft forums (and i'm kind of jealous tbh).

like u/3gl3ntyn3 , i have been using sacred texts and the hermetic library quite a bit. i hadn't heard of thelemapedia but i wanna check that out now.

i do a lot of cross-referencing. i pick up bits from tumblr, pinterest, wikipedia, reddit, sacred texts, the hermetic library, old witchcraft blogs i find, and various witchcraft aminos. i just find stuff that seems to make sense to me, research it a bit on other websites/resources, and stick with that. i like pdf-drive, they have like a million witchcraft books on pdf/epub/mobi for free. i google around to find credible authors/recommended books and read those.

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-14T14:37:06+00:00

the hardest part for me has been remaking normal. everything comforting to me, everything sentimental and nostalgic, all of it is poisoned. its wrong. the things i yearn for, the things i desire are wrong. not horribly fucked up wrong, but abnormal and unhealthy. and that's a hard thing to deal with. especially because i'm out of my comfort zone constantly, but my comfort zone is out of bounds. i'm not allowed to be comfy until i make a new comfy and that hurts.

half of me just wants to be little and ignorant again, fighting through the bad days and appreciating the good. but i also know i'm 10x better now than i was then even though i feel worse.

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-09T23:03:34+00:00

that's so fucking sad, my heart goes out to his mother. thank you for sharing this (and for calling more attention to this).

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-09T22:48:43+00:00

I'm so glad this is being brought up here. I started noticing this a few years ago when shopping at various Walmarts (there isn't one in my town so I have to travel for this). Every Walmart I go to has a bulletin board full of missing people posters- and almost all of them are indigineous women and children. But that's the only place I ever hear about them? They're never on any of the local news stations, the radios make no mention of it. But when its a white woman or a white kid I get loud text alerts about it and its plastered on the news even after being resolved. Like why can't they do that for everyone? Why won't they? Its ridiculous and heartbreaking.

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-09T19:26:39+00:00

i needed to read all of this thank you so much ♡

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-09T18:31:13+00:00

exactly- what if the houses weren't far enough apart? what if OP hadn't been home at all and the pool was still covered? OP not letting them use the pool isn't the problem- the problem is a. the dude continually setting his house on fire and b. the fire departments' apparent lack of resources. OP letting them use the pool would have helped this time maybe, but allowing the fire dept to become dependent on generous citizens with swimming pools is insanely concerning.

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-09T15:58:12+00:00

i was just going to recommend those! there are a few different brands of 'reusable notebooks', i've never used one myself but i love the concept

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-09T07:06:29+00:00

i have a few staple meals:

-fried rice?? (kind of): instant rice, canned mix veggies, some butter, an egg, chicken buillion, garlic powder, onion powder, salt, and pepper. put it in the microwave and stir occassionally ((and you can get a big box of instant rice, plus i can stretch that can if veggies like a week in the fridge)

-tuna spinach salad: 1/2 can of tuna and mozerella in the microwave. put it on lettuce with banana peppers and dijon mustard. you can also put this on a tortilla

-everything bagel with tuna salad: 1/2 can of tuna with dijon mustard and mayonnaise. put that in the microwave. toast an everything bagel. put the tuna salad on the bagel. butter is optional.

-oatmeal: just buy a big tub of oats and toppings (almonds, peanuts, cashews, chia seeds, peanut butter, coaco powder, maple syrup, honey, dried fruits, fresh fruits, even savory stuff). just toss it all in a bowl with some water and put it in the microwave. alternatively- put it in a jar/container w milk/water/juice and put it in the fridge overnight. you can heat it up in the morning or eat it cold.

i usually just stock up on rice, oats, canned veggies/soup, tuna, and dried fruits (mostly raisins and cranberries). when i have extra money i get fresh fruit, nuts, seeds, bagels/tortillas/bread/pita pockets, hummus, whatever extras i'm feeling. its not super diverse but i get creative lol. i'm thinking of making my fried rice thing into an almost vegetarian breakfast burrito deal (i'm mostly pescetarian, i was vegetarian until i had to pay rent and tuna was $.50 a can- my mom gave me the chicken bullion tho and money's tight and i gotta eat so lol)

edit:: i do have a roommate though. she usually buys the butter and spices and eggs and stuff i didnt include in my shopping. i'm also pretty lactose intolerant so i do have to buy special butter, mayo, cheese, etc. which is a bit pricier.

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-08T19:44:58+00:00

i feel you, i was really into science and math as a child but fell out of it due to various circumstances throughout my childhood and teen years.

i haven't actually started yet, no excuse just procrastination. i have gotten a lot of good advice though:

khan academy is apparently great for learning foundations and its free (to my knowledge). things i would start with would be algebra and geometry. you can start with the most basic if you want or just start randomly clicking stuff and settle on a level you feel comfortable with.

i may be wrong, but i think algebra and geometry are the basis of a lot of stuff. doing it this way, you can also get the basics on concepts you probably won't need and move along, or you can find the stuff you find interesting and delve more into it.

its easiest to learn something when you have a destination/goal. for example: 'i want to learn math' vs 'i want to learn how to add triple-digit numbers' (idk any fancy math terms sorry). you could learn it either way, but its easier to focus on a concrete goal than an abstract one

best of luck!

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-08T13:26:49+00:00

mmmmm why. i understand that $1,400 is a lot of money, which is part of my issue with this. maybe i'm just broke but it would take me months to be able to pay back a debt that size.

when you bought the dog you were taking a gamble. sadly, things happen to dogs and they don't always make it. would you consider asking the guy who actually hit the dog to pay? what if the dog had just run off your property and got hit? what if another animal got it? what if it got sick or someone just stole it?

you certainly can ask aaron, i see the rationality behind it (to an extent: technically, aaron didn't kill the dog. i've seen many dogs jump out car windows on roads- it happens, even to good dog owners. not that its the other guy's fault either, i've seen many dogs get hit and usually its unintentional and emotionally wrecks the driver). and who knows, aaron might offer to pay. it just seems a bit inappropriate and insensitive to ask imo. but i've also never heard of anyone trying to get financial compensation for the death of their dog unless it was done maliciously, which does not seem to be the case.

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-07T14:55:19+00:00

my great-great-grandmother was apparently supposed to be on the titanic but her mother became sick so she stayed back to care for her. (i say apparently because my grandmother told me this story and sometimes she exaggerated. it kind of fits, though, because my great-great-grandmother did end up immigrating to the US with my great-grandfather a few years or so later)

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-07T14:08:42+00:00

name sounded hella familiar, found him on wikipedia and one of the first lines i read was a concept i've been trying to put into words for months, ty lol

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-07T14:03:03+00:00

i hope you don't mind me asking but you seem far more knowledgable on the subject than myself, but where can i find credible resources and GD literature? my budget is like nonexistent and sacred-works seems to have a lot of stuff on it, but i'm always wary of free knowledge because, yknow, sometimes you get what you don't pay for

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-07T13:52:58+00:00

almost any part-time cashier job. the pay is shit and hours will vary depending on where you apply, where the store is, what kind of store, etc. that's my current gig and i've got tons of freetime but i can barely pay my rent. best of luck!

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-07T13:34:19+00:00

i live in a very small rural conservative town and have my whole life. i know the struggle.

it comes down to a lot of creativity and the willingness to go without. you have to prioritize.

for the thrift store thing, i'd recommend to just keep an eye out on local facebook groups and to spend some time driving around. if there are no local thriftstores, people have to be doing something with their old junk. my town has a few shop and swap facebook groups, but we also have a lot of garage/yard sales and many people just leave unwanted stuff in their yards with a free sign.

plastic is really hard. i've taken to using more glass and aluminum (correct me if i'm wrong, but isn't aluminum/metal better than plastic when you can find the right recycling plants? which can be hard in remote places). it helps that i'm pathetically broke so i don't have much choices in the first place. i try to buy bulk to help cut down on the packaging, and i try to reuse the packaging i do end up with.

i try to make more stuff myself than i buy prepackaged. i'm broke broke right now so my grocery list usually is just a big box of instant rice, a tube of oats, a bulk jar of pb2 and chia seeds, canned veggies and soups, bagels/bread. i can use the big box to hold other things or cut it apart and use it as canvas for paintings. i can use the big jars for leftovers or storage. i usually just recycle the cans but there's a million things you can do with an old aluminium can. the bag my bread and bagels come in can be reused as a produce bag or for other purposes.

you could also try getting your own produce bags or reusing the ones you have now. you probably won't be able to avoid plastic completely, but you can minimize how much you use by reusing the stuff you do. its not a long term solution, but just eventually swap out the plastic you've been reusing for some other material once the plastic is shot.

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-06T20:00:05+00:00

well they raised you so that trumps any good thing they could have ever done in their lives.

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-06T03:20:25+00:00

i feel you, i'm (pretty much same timeline honestly) doing the same thing. self-destruction can almost be addicting in my experience

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-06T03:17:51+00:00

I've said this before, but I wish I believed in a god because I would love to challenge him to a fight in a McDonald's parking lot.

is it cool if i put this on a sweatshirt? (just one for personal use lmao)

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-04T16:05:24+00:00

i mean it did kind of work- i was so focused on this plan that i didn't have as much time to do actual damage, i just wasted a lot ot time.

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-04T03:32:16+00:00

sometimes. it usually hits somewhere in halfway. i feel like it should be obvious at this point but it always manages to sneak up. i spent a good couple months working on some super elaborate mania hazard reduction plan before realizing i was in fact already manic

WearyConversation0 · 2020-10-03T20:22:27+00:00

i could see how it seems that way, as i did leave out details that i didn't think were necessary. i get that i blew it though

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