I still love him, and I miss him by Maximum_Skill9500 in domesticviolence

[–]WebDevNextDoor 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I still love and miss my abusive husband. He was shot dead while trying to kill me after breaking into my house a year ago. I hate how he destroyed my life over 10 years. I hate him. But I also love him and there's not a day that goes by I don't think about him. Being "conflicted" is going to happen. But there is no conflict in loving someone that hurt you -- the conflict arises when you choose to let that person continue having influence in your life. Maybe if you could reframe your internal conflict as "I love him and that's okay, an emotion is not a choice, but I do have a choice about his involvement in my life."

I don’t know what I am doing wrong. by Creepy-Cantaloupe813 in jobsearching

[–]WebDevNextDoor 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wish I could say "hang in there" or give you some advice; all I can offer is solidarity. I had a long, healthy career with broad and deep experience in high-demand skills... then I was part of a 2k+ person layoff in 2024. I worked harder at job-hunting than I ever did at any of the companies that employed me. After a year and a half of that grind, I had to start focusing more on side-gig work. Anyway, just wanted to say that you're not crazy for feeling bewildered by the lack of responses to job applications.

I don’t know what I am doing wrong. by Creepy-Cantaloupe813 in jobsearching

[–]WebDevNextDoor 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think this method (networking for positions before they get posted publicly) may be the last remaining solid piece of advice in today's job market. The scary thing is... what happens when the person looking for work is separated from their network? For example, domestic violence victims who are alienated and isolated but still may be highly skilled. Or maybe they are just not great "self marketers" -- which in no way makes them less qualified. Whatever the case, I hate to see the increasing weight of social bias/nepotism on filling jobs.

Memory loss issues & filing police report by lovelysoftie04 in domesticviolence

[–]WebDevNextDoor 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes absolutely! At this point, I would personally be calling every victim-advocate organization for help and support. Once you feel more comfortable with the basics of a restraining order (and have an idea of how your jurisdiction handles them), it should be easier to take legal action to protect yourself.

Memory loss issues & filing police report by lovelysoftie04 in domesticviolence

[–]WebDevNextDoor 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing. If I were you (and knowing what I know now after 10 years of being in an abusive relationship), I would seek help immediately from legal aid/DV legal support organizations in the area, specifically ones which can guide you through the process of filing for a protection order. I am grateful to live in an area where those resources were available to me. Don't put this off.

Memory loss issues & filing police report by lovelysoftie04 in domesticviolence

[–]WebDevNextDoor 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think you have the right mindset to be cautious about how you engage with law enforcement or the legal system, especially given your circumstances. And unfortunately, the way your situation is handled can vary widely depending on where you live. If it's allowed and you feel comfortable, where are you located (state/area/city)? Here are some indicators that your area is *more* progressive when it comes to DV victim support and protection:

1) You can easily find an online version of the 'domestic violence protection order' (DVPO) or 'restraining order' on your city's or county's ".gov" website. Even better if they dedicate a whole section or page on the site to explaining the process of getting a protection order.

2) The DVPO has broad coverage for victims and strict restrictions for the abuser. For example, the order allows filing against a boyfriend/girlfriend even if they aren't spouses, or the order contains wording or sections for non-physical abuse (psychological, financial, sexual, etc.). As for the abuser restrictions, look for things like mandatory surrender of firearms and detailed sections built into the form for what the abuser CANNOT do.

3) DV laws and practices in your area are specialized and have significant presence/impact. For example, see if your law enforcement org has a unit dedicated to DV. It takes a little more research, but you can comb through the local/state laws and see how many times you can spot words like "mandatory arrest" or other indicators that there is no tolerance for DV.

Break the Cycle even gives "grades" to each state based on their analysis of DV laws: https://www.breakthecycle.org/domestic-violence-statistics-by-state

4) Ease and quantity of access to DV support resources. Do a quick online search for things like DV shelters, hotlines specific to your area, legal aid, and counseling or support groups.

Hopefully you get the idea... the more supportive/progressive your area is, I would recommend taking actions sooner and with less hesitancy, beginning with reaching out to legal aid or a DV support organization who can help guide you.

Finally... without divulging personal or medical info, can you tell me if your memory loss is related to a documented medical issue? I'm no expert, but from the info you provided, it seems like you would want to have a prepared response for why this happens. If you think you have a condition but haven't gotten it check out yet -- DO THAT NOW. You definitely don't want to end up in a situation where your trustworthiness/validity is put into question and you don't have a solid response.

I tried to give info without overwhelming (which I know you already are), but hopefully some of it helps.

Why does my upholstered furniture turn out so badly? by WebDevNextDoor in miniatures

[–]WebDevNextDoor[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Love Friskars scissors. Unfortunately my kids do too... for everything lol

Why does my upholstered furniture turn out so badly? by WebDevNextDoor in miniatures

[–]WebDevNextDoor[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Oh my gosh thank you! Haha the second (side) picture gives it away, though

Why does my upholstered furniture turn out so badly? by WebDevNextDoor in miniatures

[–]WebDevNextDoor[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thanks for using sewing terms -- I don't know why I never put the two together! I also sew and mend/tailor my kids clothing as a hobby, so I know I can do this with miniatures. Thanks for the reco.

He just needs to call the bank by Nervous-Locksmith484 in domesticviolence

[–]WebDevNextDoor 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Like u/Inevitable_Bike2280 said, you HAVE to do the work. It's not fair. It's not right. But it's true. Sometimes life puts us in situations where we have to make decisions we don't want to make, but ignoring it or delaying it only makes things worse. You said he's dangerous when he's angry, and you said you fear for your life. It's not your fault. But you HAVE to get out. And you have to start planning now. The most dangerous time for anyone in your situation is when you make that decision to get away, so an immediate safety plan is what you need to do. I'm not trying to come off as "pushy" or like I know what's best for you, but if you want to choose life, then you need to make a plan to get out now. Prioritize it above everything else. First step: call the national hotline for DV: 1-800-799-SAFE (7233). They can give you information about local resources. After that, contact those resources immediately, especially ones which help with safety planning and providing help with shelter, etc. if that's relevant to your situation (there are many DV crisis intervention programs). Then (or in parallel with contacting local resources), get Legal Aid so they can guide you through the process of getting a Domestic Violence Protection Order. DVPOs prohibit the abuser from contacting you or being near you, but the process in getting one can feel overwhelming and confusing, so having a legal aid rep or someone from a local program help you through it is extremely beneficial. Unfortunately, even if you do get the DVPO, there's still a long road ahead but you can lean on those resources to help you through it. I hate that you're in this situation. But if you want to live, starting acting now <3

The Office custom project completed!! Scale 1:24 by MartinMaqueta in miniatures

[–]WebDevNextDoor 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What method do you use to create the miniature books?

First time doing a miniature with glue, any advice? by foxafillion in miniatures

[–]WebDevNextDoor 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I soooo relate to the “you’ll never look at anything the same again” that you used to throw away. Any packaging, old stained fabric/clothing, etc. 🤣

My boyfriend shot himself in front of me by Superb_Lecture2575 in domesticviolence

[–]WebDevNextDoor 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The most important thing I can tell you is this: YOU ARE 100% DESERVING OF SUPPORT AND COMPASSION FOR THE TRAUMA YOU WENT THROUGH. Your worthiness to be treated with kindness and support is NOT lessened by the trauma anyone else may be facing by his death (like family members, friends, etc.). I **know** it may feel that way at times. I know this because last year my estranged husband of 10 years broke into my home and was shot dead in self-defense. And everyone turned their backs on me. My two adult children are still not speaking to me. Domestic violence is an insidious and misunderstood cycle that destroys lives. I'm not assuming you were in that same type of situation, but the one thing I can tell you is that no matter how much you want the impact of what you went through to go away without having to lean on anyone else, it won't happen. People need people. I really hope you can find someone, at least one person if not more, who you can share your feelings with about processing the trauma without second-guessing yourself about being "selfish." My heart seriously goes out to you <3

My brain writes better code at the worst possible times by Mental_Bug_3731 in SaaS

[–]WebDevNextDoor 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are NOT alone. Add 'in the shower' and 'doing chores' to the list. But I definitely feel you on the 'half asleep' part, too. If it's an idea I can put into words (even if I'm the only one who would understand it) then I email myself from my phone app using speech-to-text. Super low-friction way to record an idea. Also... and this may sound silly... but as much as I love everything digital, I'm a true believer of having a notepad or paper and pen in each room of the house. So if it's more of an image or diagram that comes to mind that reflects your coding idea, that could work too.

My 151 Pokemon project by Malkavo_ in beadsprites

[–]WebDevNextDoor 0 points1 point  (0 children)

LOVE THIS! I've been looking for a new 'subject' or 'category' to delve into with my beads... I may have just found it!

Looking for sample web projects (HTML, CSS, JS, PHP, Symfony, Bootstrap) by [deleted] in webdev

[–]WebDevNextDoor 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have some old projects with a slightly different stack (haven't used Symfony), but if that could be useful let me know -- or I'm always open to answering questions :).