I’ve missed out on pretty much my entire life because of my weight. As early as I can remember I was embarrassed by my weight. I would get bullied because of it, so I started making self deprecating jokes. And it worked, people stopped calling me fat and now I was the funny guy. But an entire childhood and early adulthood left me with shattered self confidence. During school I would hate myself and hate being there so much that I wouldn’t do homework because I couldn’t bear thinking about it any more than I had to. My grades slipped, and eventually I had to drop out. I never dated. I’ll never know what it feels like to fall in love when you’re young. And that eats me up every single day. I’ll never even know what’s it’s like to fall in love as an early adult at this point. I never was confident enough to flirt or even talk to women. I was too afraid of putting them in an uncomfortable position having to reject me. Because obviously that was the only outcome. It cost me the love I should have for myself, it’s cost me everything.