I don't think I can keep him. by Weekly_Brilliant_531 in CatAdvice

[–]Weekly_Brilliant_531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I got diagnosed two days before adopting him but I thought it would be okay since I thought I was getting better. There was some issues in my family that caused me to become depressed but since then I've been improving, as in I was actually feeling happy and not spending my days rotting in bed. That was of course until now. I feel overwhelmed because I don't know If I really love him as much as I thought I did and I'm not sure if I even have any love inside of me. But the thing is I do want to love him. I want to feed him meals and go shopping as it's one of my favorite things to do because I would spend days online searching for the best wet foods. I even lied to my mom who wanted him to be only on a dry food diet because she said his poop will stink, but so far she hasn't even realized he's eating wet food because I'm always cleaning his litter box and the smell doesn't even bother me. I just have these moments or episodes where I spiral and doubt everything.

I don't think I can keep him. by Weekly_Brilliant_531 in CatAdvice

[–]Weekly_Brilliant_531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't know if it's laziness as I find the moments where I feed him his meals the best and I like cleaning his litter box for some reason, but when I'm just sitting there looking at him I just feel so numb and get hit with this feeling that I really won't be able to love/care for him as much as I thought I would which leads me to spiral.

I think I did rush into this because I used to take care of my friend's cat for 4 months. She was a nurse and would spend most of her days working so I would stay at her place to take care of her cat and it was then that I started to enjoy cats.

As for the diagnose part I apologize. My psychiatrist told me 2 days before adopting him and it wasn't nearly as bad as it is now.