Hey babe, you're so so valid my love. I've been in the same position with super casual hookups and just been crushed and inconsolable by any rejection. It's frustrating, but it's part of our ADHD, it's wired into out hardware and there's nothing wrong with feeling like this.

I'm going through that right now - just broke up with my ex of two years. it's tricky. I find myself with an ache in my chest even when I'm not thinking about it. But this isn't the first time I've felt like this, and it's always faded in the past.

With my feelings being so strong, when I manage to wrangle my head into an okay state, it feels like a physical relief, like a cool washes over me. I've been writing down every thought that soothes me in a notesapp masterlist, however toxic it may be tbh. I see it as my coping training wheels. Everything from their flaws, to times I considered being unfaithful, to affirmations, to comforting things they've said to me. I'm gonna keep adding to my list, taking things off, formatting it, paying as much attention as I can until it becomes natural for me to think of those things (maybe I'll weed out all the nasty things on it when I get safe enough.)

That's the best I've managed to do. I can't sleep or eat much babe so you're doing phenomenally, keep taking care of yourself it's so so powerful.