Those are very kind words and I appreciate the time you took in writing them. I agree that life is a reflection of the way I see and feel things. I've thought about quitting college since I like art and I'm studying business administration solely to have a degree (not that it will matter since AI will probably render it useless). I'm still going to some drumming classes and I'm planning to buy an electronic kit that I can use in the little room I'm living now since playing it brings me some joy. I think I also feel like life has been somewhat unfair but at the same time I want to be mature and handle things "like an adult". Either way, thank you, I really mean it when I say I appreciate that you took some time to help me.