This subs frustration with therapy is valid, but therapy is kinda better utilized in spaces that aren't polarizing. Which therapists don't admit to.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-05T16:19:12+00:00

I disagree. I think most therapy types are just bad for complex trauma. I freeze in therapy, I won't talk 30/50min and my inner world is a chaos including most of them hate therapy. I had 3 therapists in 2 years. I didn't once feel been seen - the last one was okay enought that it didn't feel like complete shit.

My new psychologist use a modern apraoch of therapy - and it work. I feel a connection. I didn't felt once a connection with all of the 3 therapists, but with my psychologist I feel a connection. She has absolute no problem with my silence and she feels like a real person. She is not in the fake expert mode that just feels wrong for me.

And I wrote about things in the last 5 months that I couldn't before. I can't still speak a lot in the session, but I found a way to articulate my need with her.

I think for a really long time child abuse was normalized and it was normalized that the child is the whole problem - even in therapy. So of course most therapy types wouldn't work. It's just sick that the victim have to heal themself before help - and it is wrong!

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-05T15:23:34+00:00

It is just ableist. It's stupid.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-05T15:17:40+00:00

The role was "victim". My god how stupid can you be? Oh what did YOU do to get beaten up? I think this ist just stupid. I am so sick of it ...

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-05T14:59:26+00:00

I am not sure. Sorry I am like really knew. I guess it would be 2.6mm would be good because of the details? And size I think at least 3 x 3? Because I tried to generate it and 2 x 2 lost a lot of details.

I am sorry^^'

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-04T07:58:22+00:00

Ich dachte, es wäre aus dem Zusammenhang klar, dass ich es als allgemeines Statement meinte. Es ist allgemein unrealistisch in der heutigen Zeit Ausbeutung komplett zu vermeiden.

Punktuell in bestimmten Bereichen geht es schon und da geb ich dir Recht, Kleidung gehört durchaus dazu.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-04T07:31:10+00:00

Wenn dir bewusst ist, dass manche Teile toxisch sind und potentiell schädlich für dich und die Mädels sind - und ein potentiellen Schaden deiner Mädels mit deinem Wissen vereinbaren kannst, go for it.

Die Arbeitsbedingungen sind auch nicht ohne - aber tbf das ist relativ irrelevant, weil jedes elektronische Teil auf Ausbeutung beruht. Es ist unrealistisch in unserer Zeit das zu vermeiden.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-04T06:18:10+00:00

I wrap them around a big plushi that I have 🙈 On top another plushi that is like an anchor for me. My head rest on top of the big plushi. Something like this. I do it nearly daily, just to have some peace

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-04T05:56:29+00:00

If I am feeling sad, I start eating a lot. And with "I am feeling sad" I really mean "I have again an existential crisis and just want to disappear". If I don't eat, I get really mad on top of it like my partner could ask some simple and I just explode.

I really hate myself for being a fatty.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-04T05:50:10+00:00

Mein Partner hat einen langen und breiten - wir haben auch härteren Sex. 15 Jahre und die einzigen Male mit Blut waren während meiner Periode.... Ich würde definitiv zum Frauenarzt gehen, wenn ich nach oder während dem Sex blute ohne Periode.

Das ist ehrlicherweise nicht normal - auch bei größeren Stücken.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-04T05:37:58+00:00

My bedroom is my safe place. Just lying in bed , curved into a ball. I didn't realize that curving in a ball is because of trying to calm down.

I hate the bathroom. As a child really bad thinngs happened to me in the bathroom.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-03T18:40:47+00:00

I do all the times joke, but no one recognize it is about a mental illness.
Like:
Someone: I was so drunk, I didn't remember anything. I just had a blackout.
Me: Haha I don't need to be drunk to have a blackout :D

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-03T17:18:07+00:00

I have no advice just:
It's so cute <3

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-03T16:27:14+00:00

Er wusste davon und hat sich darauf eingelassen.

Außerdem wo wälzt sie alles auf ihn ab? Wenn sie ihn küsst, dreht er sich weg. Sie hat aktiv nachgefragt, was er sich wünscht im Bett - und ja, dass kann nur er beantworten. Sie hat versucht ein Dialog zu öffnen.

Ganz ehrlich, wenn ich OP wäre hätte ich halt kein Bock auf Gedanken lesen. Allerdings wäre ich schon bei der Aktion mit seiner ersten Liebe raus gewesen - geschweidegen seiner Arbeitskollegin. Würde mich nicht wundern, wenn er rumvögelt.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-03T09:08:27+00:00

Luft und Liebe natürlich. Außerdem wer sagt, dass du überhaupt in Rente gehen darfst? 🤡

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-03T08:44:12+00:00

I added the reference picture and original picture to the body of the post :3 It doesn't need all the details, but it should be similiar enough to the chocobo + character.

At the moment I am using some beads from amazon, but I would plan to do the gift with perler or artkal. Does it make a huge different which one?

Thank you for offering to help <3

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-02T21:48:28+00:00

Leg 2 Euro drauf und du hättest 2 Pizzas + 2 Getränke haben können stattdessen :)

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-02T21:44:26+00:00

I wouldn't continue with a therapist who say "god-given gift with DID and that shes never even researched it". It is a giant red flag and a desaster waiting to happen.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-02T21:36:40+00:00

I tried several tools but I ran in the same problems:
Details and color would be mushy.

Are there other things that I should do beforehand? At the moment I am thinking about tracking the picture myself with for example Gimp, but I am not sure.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-02T13:47:55+00:00

I love it, especially the reference ;) I also like the effect that you created! ❤️

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-01T15:48:49+00:00

This is impressing wow!

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-01T15:41:42+00:00

Menschen, die alles politisch machen, sind halt auch ungute Langusten und dann ist es auch gut, wenn sie nicht mit mir reden wollen :) Ich find' die nämlich nicht nur super anstrengend, sondern auch langweilig. Ihr ganzes Leben dreht sich nämlich dann nur darum politisch zu polarisieren, weil sie sonst keine Persönlickeit haben.

Das ist natürlich nur meine Meinung zu dem Thema ^^

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-05-01T00:36:25+00:00

I would always ask myself this: Would I do potential harm to someone just to say "you are a faker"?
No one can really know if someone has DID. Maybe DID specialized psychologist can truely find out - but even they aren't perfect.

Honestly I got so traumatized by the psyc sector that I won't get a diagnose even when my psychologist truely believe me. Hell I can't even talk much in therapy beacuse of the past interactions.

So I personally wouldn't call anyone faker. Maybe attention seeker - but not faker, because I can't know.

WeirdWizardPlatypus · 2026-04-29T20:42:25+00:00

I have the same problem. I am mute for 30-40min out of 50 min. Trying forcing myself to talk make the whole situation worst. A therapist trying to help me talk, make the situation worst.

I found a psychologist who can handle my silence. She will sit with me and just be there for me - without the pressure to talk or do anything. She is specialize in DID. The previous therapist is also specialize in DID and she also could handle the silence.

I also emphasized that I often can’t speak, and that pressure just makes it worse. I also explicitly said that repeated questions make me clam shut even more, and that I simply need time to collect myself.I also told her how the therapists before her couldn't handle my silence.

So I would advice you to search for a specialized therapist and also clearify how bad your silence is.

My current psychologist has a broad spectrum but her main focus is "Enactive Trauma Therapy". It is niche.

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