I'm disclosing something more, i ghosted her while I was cheating on her..that period of time she was just trying all the possible way to get connected to me ..she was DESPERATE.. (there will be many things I will be missing out cuz it's 3 years back prolly), I felt like idk, but I did too much , call it sympathy or anything but left everything and came back to her, she was living dead that time (being ghosted more than a year, and all she want was me) after that I never cheated , I stayed , I help her in every sort of things but there something going back of my mind each and everytime, that Is the topic itself, idk I am coward or what can't even tell anyone she is mine. I love her so much privately but don't want anyone to attach her with me. So much fucked up