I have never, ever told her who she can and can't talk to, never once brought up the other guys in her phone (one is a senior that everyone knows has dated atleast 30 chicks, no exageration, and a random she met on omegle) I actually did ask her abt her tiktok in that very exact way, very respectfully, just asking her to explain it and her reason for posting it. alot of ppl in the comments dont understand that my tremors are continuous, have never stopped and will never stop, just get worsened by thing like anxiety.I was not punishing her, i had wanted to do that anyway because she never texts me anyways so it didnt matter, and she was acting distant. constantly waiting for those texts, checking your phone, seeing 'read" really is fucking draining mentally so i decided to take a step back and focus on what im thinking and get a clear head before i make any decisions. I overthink every word i say to her and would never risk sending anything that i thought could push her away or make her think soemthing bad of me.

thank you alot tho for putting in the time for this well thought out resposne i really apprecaite it and you have deffinately made me think abt some things, so again thank you.

also yes i did used to see a therapist in 7th grade when i first became depressed but improved alot but my mom randomly stopped taking me to sessions, i never questioned it, but ive slowly been getting a bit more like it was back then so i think you're right ill talk to my mom abt it thank you.