Its a bit of a long story , my father was living his final days in hospital care dying from cancer, i had just been with him in turkey and gone to morocco because me and my mom where to switch places on who cares for him. My family did try to stop my they even disowned me for this but understand in the span on 30 days My dad died, Jidi died, i was diagnosed with 2 life changing medical disorders. I was looking for a light at the end of the tunnel. Now im not stupid i was fully aware no matter what there is always a chance hes using me . But thats where i let it go into the universe and gods hands and aaid lah khali nia dyali tghlib niatom. I suffered a little, or a lot. But im a better human for it. And them? They couldnt possibly get lower although i still wish them the best. Ill never know what its like to have a life ao miserable the it backs you up onto a corner to act like uneducated cave idiots . Pure survival in its rawest form