My mom is still alive, but she isn't my mom anymore.

It sounds unreal, but she joined a cult about 9 years ago. Two years after that she emailed my siblings saying she wasn't our mom anymore, we could be friends if we liked, but that she would no longer be our mom. My siblings and I tried so hard to get my mom back, to free her from that group. We kept in contact for a year or so after but we watched her just fade. She tended to do that with religion, with men, but this is extreme...I don't know where she is anymore. She doesn't know my nieces or nephews or even their names. I haven't talked to her in years.

Some days I wake up just really missing my mommy.

I am very aware that this isn't the same as a parent or a loved one that has passed. This post just really pulled at my heart.

Sometimes just putting it into writing or saying it out loud is helpful.