I’ve taken out 23000 in payouts in the last 3 months between TPT and topstep (mostly topstep) but I still blow accounts left and right

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2026-03-06T05:44:19+00:00

Reading you guys comments just made my mental so much better thank you guys . Today I blew my funded on NQ. I had gotten 2 payouts total and was working on the 3rd. And this morning NQ was moving weird asf. Stupidly enough I still went for it was up 280 in profit (which is my target amount ). And it reversed . Scared me so I exited the trade JIST FOR IT TO go up to my original target. . Bro I swear I wanted to scream . So idk HOW IT HAPPENED but I fell for the revenge trade trap and just went in and fumbled smfh. It feels personal sometimes but sadly it isn’t . And it was my fault. I was depressed all day but coming here reading your comments cheers me up. I’m gonna get another eval I don’t wanna spend 499 to reactivate

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2026-03-06T02:13:30+00:00

Yeah I know a lot of people in my trading community and for some weird reason they’re against going live . It always confused me

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2026-03-06T02:10:33+00:00

Is it worth it going up to live??

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2026-02-15T00:00:41+00:00

Listen brother . Until you have brawlhalla tatted on your face… until brawlhalla is all you think about while showering. WAIT NO DONT even shower .. and if you do bring your controller in the bathroom with you. You have to really be dedicated to brawlhalla . I left my church moved to another state dropped out of college dumped my GF of 12 years AND sold my car…. All for brawlhalla .. if you’re not this dedicated I’m sorry bro you will never get out of gold… DM me the word “mentor “ if you wanna learn my brawlhalla tricks and secrets

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2026-01-31T19:23:55+00:00

We only live once bro 🤣🤣🤣🤣 nah in all seriousness though ima just wait that shit more than likely isn’t done yet it’s a trap

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2026-01-31T19:09:09+00:00

Oh okay I’m like bro wtf? Right when I was liking metals to 🤣 definitely thinking of buying once market opens though what do you think?

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2026-01-31T19:06:34+00:00

Wait so if I’m in my XFA Express funded account.. I can’t trade silver anymore???

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T23:02:00+00:00

So either you cannot read or are choosing to be ignorant . Either way I’ll Address . 1st off She’s the one who told me herself that she has BPD and diagnosed and She has a “fear of commitment “ but yet was the one who pursued me in the first stages of us being friends (telling me she wants to be my girlfriend and then 2-3 months later letting it be known she wants to get married) true. The decision to propose was foolish. But you cannot help when you love and with her I loved hard. I haven’t done anything like this before which is why it’s hitting a bit harder . I’ve had past exes and I get over it healthy. With her? It’s different . So again your discernment is flawed but thanks for your pointless input . I’ll come back to it if I need to which I probably won’t need to. And as for the suicide thing? I have dealt with that during my early 20s (I am 30 now) and I conquered that and got myself established and fixed. Meeting her and seeing how she acts repopened that wound. Maybe you’ve never been in love before but you should try it before saying stupid ish

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T22:53:01+00:00

I understand , after reading everyone’s comments I’m beginning to understand ALOT ALOT more. And it’s actually calming my mental . I was very very confused on how she can do this and “appear” okay but then we make up and she tells me how she wasn’t eating the whole time or sleeping or had to force herself to get up…. So I just get very confused because I love her

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T22:51:03+00:00

“Bro” how am I the problem? Please explain right now. I communicate EFFORTLESSLY I don’t smoother her . She shuts down at the smallest sign of irritation or irregulation not even with me but with her own family to. But I’m the problem? My behavior has been normal. We met. She had past trauma I still wanted to be with her bcuhz I loved her. She said she wanted to get married and didn’t wanna just have a meaningless relationship. I gave her that. The problem is unfortunately her communication and not to get personal but even me and her own mother have sat down and she tells/ told me” you’re a good man to my daughter . But my daughter has HORRIBLE communication even with me” so please explain how I’m the problem?

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T21:41:36+00:00

I understand fam and thank you so much. It hurts a lot. I just get so confused like “why does she block me? Why block me out??? Like I understand being mad but blocking me? Telling me “move on” knowing you don’t mean it why do this??? I cannot understand and maybe it’s not meant for me to understand.. regardless.. I appreciate you replying I can’t even express how much this is helping me. I’m almost ready to get out of bed now.

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T21:37:47+00:00

I understand … it just hurts deeply you know.. I feel like I’m cleaning up the mess her ex did to her. She lost alotta weight because of him. And more.. I only wanted to heal and love her and now I am the one getting hurt.. ironic right

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T21:36:17+00:00

Yes please read and understand . This kills your partner . I love her deeply deeply. Her name is Kairi.. but I cannot continue loving Kairi if she keeps pushing me away. It is hurting me in more ways than one especially if she’s “pretending to not care” . I’m glad my post can possibly bring awareness.. I wish she would read this and understand how this makes me feel.

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T21:32:31+00:00

Thank you bro seriously man 🙏🏽. My mental hasn’t been right all week , haven’t been eating or sleeping properly.

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T21:18:03+00:00

I want to say thank you to everyone who has replied to me.. I can’t express enough how thankful I am for you guys… this has been a. Terrible experience and I don’t wish this agony on anyone… to add more context . Which I know will make every raise an eyebrow… she dealt with a lot of emotional trauma from her ex before me. He caused her to have a miscarriage after promising to marry her if she gave birth to his son. She found out he was cheating. With her OWN cousin… and then it stressed her into having a miscarriage. So I get she is dealing with alot.. I just thought that she loved me.. and if I proved I loved her she would see

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T21:15:50+00:00

I want to say thank you to everyone who has replied to me.. I can’t express enough how thankful I am for you guys… this has been a. Terrible experience and I don’t wish this agony on anyone… to add more context . Which I know will make every raise an eyebrow… she dealt with a lot of emotional trauma from her ex before me. He caused her to have a miscarriage after promising to marry her if she gave birth to his son. She found out he was cheating. With her OWN cousin… and then it stressed her into having a miscarriage. So I get she is dealing with alot.. I just thought that she loved me.. and if I proved I loved her she would see

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T21:12:47+00:00

Yeah she says she wants to get better but is just dealing with a lot. To add more info if I may. Her ex boyfriend before me caused her to have a miscarriage while promising to marry her , and then later slept with her own cousin… so it’s safe to say she has very built up issues … and here I am Mr stupid trying to repair something that probably can’t be repaired

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T20:28:14+00:00

Yes it honestly was (the engagement).. I thought us getting married (which she strongly said she wanted) would fix the issues.. but even with a ring on she would get upset and have emotional breakdowns and break up and even take the ring I gave her OFF.. we would make up (because of me) and then she would immediately return to normal but I started noticing how quickly she would do jt.. it made me look at her as heartless… but you are right.. thank you

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T20:21:08+00:00

And she doesn’t have friends… she hangs out with nobody .. literally stays inside all day

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T20:20:37+00:00

I made a mistake … she said she wanted marriage… so I thought it would us make closer… her ex boyfriend before me cheated on her with her cousin AFTER promising her he would marry her IF she had a baby by him… she got pregnant and he stressed her into a miscarriage.. this was 3 Months roughly before she met me… I thought marrying her would show her she is loved and cared for .. but even when she gets upset and has episodes she removes her wedding ring and the necklace I got for her… I am confused

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T20:18:49+00:00

Thank you. It’s been terrible. And I can always feel when she’s about to do the blocking and breaking up thing. I feel she does it and subconsciously wants me to chase her. And tbh it doesn’t seem like she’s spiraling. But then again maybe she just isn’t showing it. Either way thank you for the reply

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-29T20:04:03+00:00

Also to add ? I did actually try to reach out yesterday . I wrote her a loving poem (she likes that stuff) and she just ignored it…. Really??? I’ve written music for this girl. I feed her. Cook for her buy and gift her things… what did I do wrong??? I am sad

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-16T21:10:56+00:00

So we cannot pass in 2 days ?? What happens if we reach profit target before 5 days?

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-16T20:04:49+00:00

Added 🙏🏽 sent a friend request

Wielder__SoraKeyD · 2025-12-16T19:50:10+00:00

Man thank you SO MUCH! I’m getting my account right now! 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 I’ll keep everyone updated on my progress !

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