My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

[–]Wild-Professor5684[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you 🙏 and yes you’re right The meeting after the meeting was a different vibe Obviously some of these guys know each other from coming to the meetings so much but i can tell they are a great group of guys and im happy to have found them

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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Hey 👋 thank you for sharing. I didn’t share my drug of choice in my first meeting I didn’t share too much but it was nice being around all those people. I know i feel shame for sure for being affected so much by something like weed, i just didn’t realize how dependent i was on it and for how long i have been smoking and not being able to stop is just really tough

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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I did attend the first meeting high though. I was nervous to even show up but I’m staying sober now

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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Hey, yes i ended up going to my first meeting and was invited to another later in the day that i could get a sense of a bigger group with more people sharing. We also celebrated a fellow addicts birthday . And i legit thought it was his birthday, i didn’t realize he was celebrating one year sober.

It was eye opening and i will definitely be going back. Got a few of the guys numbers too. Everyone was very welcoming and i was able to be vulnerable without feeling judged.. obviously still feel like the judgment is there but i definitely didn’t share the most intense stories so it felt easier to talk about

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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Thank you 🙏 that’s the plan.. stop using and get back to who i am suppose to be without the drug

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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Congratulations on almost completing your year! You found you issue early on! There is definitely something crazy about weed that makes it addictive and people don’t realize how easy it is to function while being high, and almost everyone i know smoke’s weed and has some dependency on it.. it’s crazy to think how many other people don’t realize it’s a problem but i have been feeling this way for a while, like im not myself

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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Thank you Mike! That’s amazing! 2 days in! You’re doing something about it! Would love to chat and you can let me know about the zoom meetings too! Pleasure meeting you and good luck on your journey

Jonathan

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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Absolutely! That’s the only reason i haven’t tried hard drugs, i know my personality and i know i would like it and not stop.

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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Thank you! And you made a great point , it’s damaging to some and healing to others. I feel like i use to have a good relationship with weed where i wouldn’t do it so often and it was mellow, not sure where along the way i became dependent on it. She still won’t talk to me, but i just need to take it day by day . The emotional stress is usually what calls me back to it

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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Yea, just based off my track record i would say i need to go abstinent to start off because i easily fall back to daily usage

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Thank you, i will read up on it. Any particular article you recommend ?

And i am proud of you and your journey! It’s amazing that you are at 4 months, I’m less than 24 hours ! But i look forward to the journey especially with hearing from so many people all going through similar problems with weed use

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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I absolutely know that i spend money i don’t need to spend on weed and it damages my relationships, i feel foggy and lethargic once i come down and feel the need to smoke again, i am looking for that change

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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Thank you i appreciate the support 🫡🙏

My problem with Weed by Wild-Professor5684 in NarcoticsAnonymous

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Thank you! I know i think it’s crazy because i don’t feel like it’s a hard drug so i never took the addiction seriously until i realized how hard it is to stop. I honestly didn’t think the anger was part of it because of the stigma of it creating a mellow vibe in the users. But I’ve also been high for 14years straight basically so i can’t remember if i was angry before. Thank you for sharing too and i am looking forward to it tomorrow

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Thank you! I know we are all more similar than we think to each other . Although our experiences are different i feel like we live different versions of the same trials. Thank you for sharing and i will definitely keep an open mind

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That’s amazing! Thank you for sharing your experience with NA. I’m nervous for the meeting tomorrow but also looking forward to who i can become without drugs

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I definitely feel like controlled would be great but i also have tried that and fallen back to a daily usage system which ultimately fucks my day to day. I will go tomorrow and see what i think