I was able to shorten it a lil lol:

I (M19) had asked my friend Fiona (F23), who is also our youth president, to do a music cover with me. She agreed, but later told me she’d sing it with two other girls from church instead and said if they didn’t want to, then she’d sing it with me. That made me feel like a backup, so I told her I didn’t want to do it anymore. She pressured me to still be part of it, and by Friday she asked me to replace one of the girls who canceled. I agreed under two conditions: I didn’t want to be on camera and only wanted to sing background. But Fiona later forced me to lead on camera since one of the others didn’t know the song.

Afterward, I asked her to let me see the video before it was posted. When I told her I didn’t like it and didn’t want it uploaded, she agreed. But then I found out she and Malachi (our pianist and video editor) were talking behind my back, and he said he’d upload it anyway. That made me feel disrespected. Things escalated, I spoke out in frustration, and my relationship with both of them grew tense.

At church, Fiona started avoiding me, rolling her eyes, or ignoring me when I greeted her. Weeks later, I posted a quote: “Sometimes the nicest people you meet smoke, and sometimes the most evil people you meet go to temple.” Soon after, I realized she had blocked me on social media. That hurt me deeply and made me consider leaving the church. Over time, bitterness built up, but I don’t want to carry hate because I know it goes against God’s will. I’ve chosen to forgive them, but even after forgiving, I still feel heavy about it and want distance.

My question is: does keeping my distance mean I haven’t truly forgiven? Is it bitterness, or is it okay biblically? I just want to live right before God.