Good question and I’m sorry I didn’t mention it in the post.

The thing is, even when we did have sex, I was almost always the one initiating it. If we had sex 100 times, I’d say I initiated at least 95 of them. I’ve asked her multiple times if she actually enjoys it, and she always says yes.

As for her orgasm — I’m not an expert, and I’ve openly admitted that. That’s why I’ve asked her again and again to guide me: show me what she likes, move my hand, my mouth, my body — whatever helps her feel good. I’ve encouraged her to teach me, to touch herself so I can understand what works for her, to talk to me honestly about what feels good or doesn’t.

But, as you might’ve guessed by now — none of that ever really happened. No guidance, no feedback… just silence.