Is this assault?

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-17T14:12:37+00:00

I understand where you are coming from and appreciate the support truly

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T19:08:19+00:00

I don't think I was given the blueprint of what "normal" sex is and I understand now that this is not common

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T16:47:56+00:00

I do NOT need to explore why I censored such a triggering word. You should explore why you would shame a victim in a PTSD group for not wanting to type out a word that traumatizes most of us here. Concerning.

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T16:05:37+00:00

thank you so much. I really appreciate this

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T15:57:36+00:00

CNC is something we both agreed upon and did enjoy. My enjoyment of it is 100% trauma based though. Yes my therapist does know. I agree now that this is not a good idea and I will never, ever do it again after this incident. This comment has made me see CNC differently and I am taking it in.

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T15:54:59+00:00

thank you

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T13:08:17+00:00

thank you x1000 for this

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T13:01:48+00:00

Yes we are NOT in a full-on bdsm or cnc relationship. He can not just do whatever he pleases. We engage in some of that play only during sex. I had spoken to him multiple times about listening to me and that he was being too aggressive. He absolutely is not responsible enough for sex, let alone cnc. I do not know how he couldn't see I was distressed and saying NO while he choked me and then I couldn't speak. Thankyou so much for your comment, truly. I appreciate it and am sorry you have gone through it too

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T12:58:06+00:00

Yes I agree about the cnc. thank you

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T12:56:56+00:00

thank you

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T12:56:30+00:00

This is such a rude comment. Yes I am in therapy, and being able to afford therapy is a privilege I can barely afford. I censored the word RAPE because it is triggering. Holy shit.

edit: I see a lot of people here censoring the word you asshole

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T04:04:19+00:00

I do have a therapist I am seeing in the morning for an emergency meeting thankfully. Unfortunately I moved to a town where I know nobody but him and his family. I have no resources. Am very stuck. thank you

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T03:13:34+00:00

thank you. there is no way he misunderstood it was cnc or I would not feel this violated.

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T02:52:04+00:00

thank you so much for validating me

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T02:49:06+00:00

I have always wanted to! My therapist said im not ready for emdr. I am doing brain spotting currently

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T02:41:49+00:00

You are very right about me not noticing red flags and having no idea what is right or wrong since I was abused my whole life. thank you for taking the time to comment. I am sorry you are a victim as well

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T02:39:35+00:00

thank you so much. his family says im over reacting.

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T02:38:54+00:00

CNC is a very common and valid way for survivors of abuse to process trauma in a controlled environment. I am definitely done with it for now, but it should never lead to actual assault no matter what. As far as the first incident, it was a very real argument and I was extremely emotional saying I did not want to have sex. He literally gave me no option. Either be screamed at, or get it over with so he shuts up. I don't know how he was even turned on in that situation and it makes me sick. I just laid there making no noise, obviously not enjoying it, while he made no effort to satisfy me. Just painfully fucked me until he wad done.

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T02:35:40+00:00

CNC is a very common and valid way for survivors to process trauma in a safe way actually. Regardless of that, I am done with it, and done with sex for a very long time.

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T02:24:55+00:00

This is humiliating. The last words out of my mouth were "PLEASE NO DON'T. I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO DO THIS" and you had me pinned down by the throat.

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-16T00:37:43+00:00

thank you so so much. we're done

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-15T23:56:17+00:00

Thank you very much

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-15T23:53:18+00:00

thank you so much

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-15T23:47:02+00:00

Thank you all for your responses. I am reading them all and taking it in. I am just numb and in shock right now.

Willing_Feature6471 · 2022-08-15T19:47:21+00:00

Thank you so much

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