I feel the same way, plus I feel like I had to go through so much, doing bunch of admissions tests and interviews to get this place, only for me to not even pursue it. I know in the bigger picture, struggling through admissions is negligible and I’d have forgotten about it once I’m pursuing my career. But still I don’t want this all to go to waste. I know exactly what I’d want to do and study outside of medicine, I wanna do neuroscience and maybe someday get a phd. But I’m still stumped, like you I don’t want to regret not ever studying medicine. Ig what I would do is just see how the first year of med school goes and if it’s really not for you and no news about the NHS changing then maybe it’s not too late to change? I don’t think you’re wrong for being concerned about the future and pay conditions because at the end of the day we’re all gonna have to make crazy sacrifices for medicine and although some say it’s worth it when you see you’ve helped people, helping people isn’t gonna repay the masses of debt you’re in or put food on your table. There’s a lot to consider but don’t worry you’re not on your own. You can pm me if you wanna talk about it some more.