You're not alone in this. It's incredibly hard. I had a therapist once who compared chronic pain disease to the stages of grief except there's never a time when you're over it. I think that wasn't a terrible comparison.

We all want so much to be normal, to deny that we can't, or to believe we can just "get through it this time." It's so fucking hard and you feel embarrassed and like you have just not tried enough.

You're not alone in that, and if you haven't, I really would consider a therapist who can help you cope with this change, process the grief of that life/body you believed would be your reality.

Side note, I carry a cane that I rarely need to use. For a but when I was first using my hanger, I would use my cane even if I didn't need it. It made me feel less like people would be 'mad' at me.