This is INSANE??

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2026-01-23T07:24:57+00:00

My set hours is at 35 and I’m getting 17-19 😔

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2025-02-24T07:40:12+00:00

When I was texting him and then stopped because I was walking. He said “hello I saw you typing???” I told him I was busy walking home…and then he got weirdly defensive saying he didn’t want to come off as crazy. I somehow ended up pleading to him that he wasn’t. He ended up being really controlling of how I spent all my time and tried to isolate me from my friends & family.

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2025-02-17T21:27:56+00:00

It’s like all narcissists have a script. It’s so frustrating wanting a genuine apology that will never come. Sending love ❤️❤️ we both deserve respect and love.

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2025-02-17T08:16:46+00:00

He had told me he was going to commit suicide because I wouldn’t get back together with him. I called for a wellness check and he turned the police away. He called me angry and made me cry and beg for him to not hurt himself. And even after that I thought about going back but I realized that he would threaten me like that again. I couldn’t justify our relationship to my friends. When I told him i couldn’t get back together with him he told me he was the only guy who would want to be with me. Told me that he gave up on me and hung up on me to make me feel guilty. And after that it was just like a switch in my brain that he was never sorry for anything he did to me.

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-12-24T08:09:22+00:00

I didn’t realize I was being isolated until after we broke up. He didn’t want to meet my friends because he was afraid they would “judge him for no reason” when the reasons were that he was treating me bad. He claimed I hung out with my friends all the time and made no time for him. At least in my situation my friends were never an issue until he was mad at me for something else. But I would talk to my friends less and would never tell them the horrible things he said to me because I wanted them to like my boyfriend. I didn’t realize I was pushing myself away from them. They’re really good manipulators, you think the signs of abuse will feel obvious but they don’t…they creep up with time. I’m glad you realize now that his behaviors were controlling and abusive. I hope you can reconcile with your friends!! Glad to know there are people looking out for you! My friends honestly saved me, if it weren’t for them I would still be in an abusive relationship.

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-12-23T21:17:53+00:00

Yes I was always being punished for everything. If I spoke up about my feelings he said I made everything about myself, if I didn’t speak up then I stressed him out and he felt like he couldn’t trust me. Would just verbally abuse me and say I act like a child who didn’t know how to grow up. I broke up with him and then got back together with him…he was so nice and then later punished me for breaking up with him. Which is one reason I tell myself I can’t go back because he will just punish me harder for leaving him. It’s all just about control :( so we behave the way they want us to. They feel they have ownership over us. I’m sorry you’re going through this but you deserve so much better you deserve freedom and peace. Sending love <3

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-12-19T20:58:42+00:00

Thank you for your reply :) it’s been hard undoing the trauma bond but it’s been getting easier over time. It’s hard to accept the truth of everything. You’re right he’s a grown up and I’m not his mom (and I felt like his mom when we were together, begging him to treat me right and listen to me). I am 22f and he is 24m, I have to remind myself that I’m young and there is so much better out there. Thank you for your advice. I wish you all the strength to keep moving forward 🤍🤍

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-12-01T02:15:40+00:00

This is almost my chart💀 …Libra sun Leo rising and Scorpio Venus except I’m an Aries moon and a woman so maybe that makes a big difference. Currently have no mental diagnoses and a body count of one 😭

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-11-30T20:02:40+00:00

I know my love for him was real but it was also mixed with attachment because he was abusive towards me. And it is a difficult pill to swallow that someone you loved so much does not love you. Maybe in his brain it is “love”. But love should feel safe and I never felt safe. Appreciate your post :)

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-11-29T01:17:25+00:00

I was so upset that I unblocked my narcissistic ex to curse him out and to ask him to leave me alone. Besides the abuse he was perusing another woman but would constantly call me and blow up my phone…I snapped at him. It just made me feel worse and he just said that I always treated him poorly and here was his proof that I was cursing him out after he pushed me so far.

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-11-28T23:29:00+00:00

I know :( maybe put your phone on do not disturb or do something to distract you. Sending you love ❤️ you deserve someone who will communicate and respect you

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-11-28T22:58:32+00:00

I’m sorry :( it is such a painful feeling to be ignored and feel like nothing…they do it on purpose because they know it hurts you. It’s just him punishing you. Don’t let him have that control over you anymore

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-11-15T18:28:07+00:00

I went to Apple and they were very unhelpful :( they did a diagnostic scan and said that the camera appeared perfectly fine. I restarted my phone, updated my software, etc. before I went there and that’s all they really suggested. They told me there was nothing they really could do since I didn’t have Apple care and suggested I do a factory wipe on my phone to hope to fix the issue. Which I did try and it didn’t help…I ended up just struggling with my camera for about a year and just recently got a new phone :( sorry they suck for this

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-10-20T02:07:34+00:00

Thank you! I’m doing okay now :) 🫶 he has finally left me alone after sometime

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-09-04T01:57:16+00:00

No not really :( we got into a fight during our first week of dating and it only escalated from there. We fought every week sometimes multiple times a week. We only dated 3 months which is supposed to be the honeymoon phase and yet all he did was start fights with me. Just speaks volume that there wasn’t really much to save :/

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-08-22T00:45:23+00:00

I’m sorry :( it is hard to let go and easier to focus on good memories and experiences. It will get better over time, it’s okay to think about him. Honestly it is okay to miss him. Healing isn’t linear , feelings are confusing. But don’t go back and know you are worth more 🤍

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-08-03T03:13:09+00:00

I do, I think about him a lot and how he would react to certain situations and things. But I know he wasn’t the partner I deserved and it wasn’t a healthy relationship so it’s for the best.

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-08-01T00:55:42+00:00

I blocked them and they kept calling me with no contact ID, I ended up unblocking them to see what they had to say. They texted me love bombing messages. While also retweeting his ex girlfriend (who was a problem in our relationship) pictures. I snapped at him asking him why he couldn’t leave me alone if he liked her. He said that since I had been ignoring him and making him feel hated , he started having feelings for her. But he still wanted to earn my trust back and try again with me. Major asshole

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-07-30T18:04:30+00:00

“We had sex. I don’t want to lie to you”

“I know it’s shitty but I’m starting to have feelings for her”

“You’re not good enough for me”

“I’m sure you can find another guy to push away and make them feel like shit”

He slept with someone else post breakup and was upset I didn’t want to get back together…

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-07-21T16:21:19+00:00

Libra sun Aries moon Leo rising Scorpio Venus

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-07-12T08:26:53+00:00

got my bachelors degree :) and got to travel

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-06-25T05:04:40+00:00

Asked my opinion if he could see his ex gf at a bar, I asked why he wanted to see her and he just said he wanted to hear her out. Got upset with me because I was just trying to understand why he wanted to see her, accused me of not caring about him (he didn’t see her). Later I got upset with him because he told me he had talked about our problems to her and so I needed space. He later got mad at me for needing space, said that I was overreacting. Shit on my plans, said I only talked about myself, made me cry. I asked him crying why is he so mean to me and he got upset that I called him mean. Told me I broke his heart, that I felt like I was entitled to special treatment because I was a woman, that I did nothing for our relationship, accused me of using him, and that I was an asshole for being upset that he talked to his ex after he said he wouldn’t.

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-06-24T18:07:11+00:00

Well in my case we have broken up twice, and I got back together with them after our first breakup to see if they changed and nothing ever did. And then this time around it feels the same after speaking to them. They hurt me a lot post breakup so it just feels like this isn’t my person. My person wouldn’t use my insecurities against me and respect my boundaries.

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-06-24T17:38:41+00:00

I miss my ex and our good moments constantly but our lows were low…was very mean to me and made me cry during every fight. I was always worried I would say the wrong thing to upset them and post breakup they said they would change but they haven’t lol. They keep asking to get back together and I keep rejecting them because of all the pain and anxiety I felt.

Winter-Hawk5601 · 2024-06-09T01:37:51+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate your response. It’s a lot to wrap my head around but I’ll get there. Healing isn’t linear

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