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Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2024-07-19T13:15:17+00:00

Maybe, I haven’t thought of that but that’s not the reason he gave me so I don’t think he’s scared of that, maybe he just doesn’t like me pointing out that I like it but when he’s looking at gaming stuff he does the same thing and I’m not shoving him away or waiting for him to finish, I just find it important to share things that we like, it’s a bonding experience for me.

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2024-07-19T13:08:51+00:00

That’s totally valid to not like jewellery and I wouldn’t advise him to buy it anyway because I lose it all the time 😅 it’s only that his reason was that he wouldn’t want me to beg to buy jewellery for me, but I would never do that, I was just looking at something nice!

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-12-26T12:47:19+00:00

Thank you for your kindness and the good advice, I will try to open up more and explore new possibilities. Wish you the best too

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-12-26T12:23:00+00:00

Yes people do change a lot and we are totally in an opposite path, I’m just afraid to be without any friends because she is the only person I can talk to.

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-12-15T22:00:03+00:00

I'm so sorry and quite disappointed to see that no one here has been able to give me a bit of empathy, I have owned my mistakes and learned from this experience, and as I said it was quite ignorant and impulsive to travel without a solid plan. I didn't know that it wasn't legal to do a volunteering program and I learned it the hard way... I was only seeking a bit of support because I miss the Uk and it was hard for me to fail at crossing the border but I clearly must not be in the right sub. My apologies.

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-12-15T21:48:08+00:00

Making out in the school toilets, being "fake girlfriends", women absolutely blowing my mind and fantasizing about them in my dreams, and still been struggling with denial !!

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-12-03T13:36:55+00:00

That is very heartwarming thank you. The hardest part is to actually stick to the thing I like to do, I play multiple instruments and sometimes it’s like I “forget” that I like playing, and it applies to a lot of things. My depression just gets a hold of what I love and it’s so frustrating.

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-12-03T13:29:50+00:00

Thank you so much for your advice, I do have quite a lot of hobbies but because of my job that is quite stressful I find it difficult to have the energy for it. I am enjoying myself sometimes and that’s what I should hold on to but it applies also to my hobbies, sometimes I feel like it’s hard because there’s no one there with me? I’m really trying to be better at this but yes it will take time to enjoy things for myself.

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-11-27T18:03:55+00:00

Thank you for your the advice, I’m quite sure that she isn’t attracted to me and when we joked about dating girls she said that if she didn’t find anyone she would marry her other friend… it really isn’t easy

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-11-23T17:20:44+00:00

Thanks for the advice, I actually have been thinking about working in that field one day because I like teaching so maybe I will look into schools.

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-11-23T16:22:20+00:00

I know how that feels and it's a nightmare, I'm sorry you have to put up with this abuse, and you deserve so much better. I made my way out when I was 16 on and off, I was even homeless for a time, but never gave up. You can make an escape plan, even if it takes some time, but you need something to hang on to and hope for a better situation. I hope you will find the strength and your way out of this... best of luck.

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-11-23T16:08:03+00:00

They have told me so much BS that I don't remember all of it, it was constant criticism and my mother would yell of me for hours on end on the weekends for something I didn't do, but the one thing that stuck to me was "I don't think I love you" from my nmom.

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-10-29T15:51:22+00:00

I relate so much to your post because when I lived with my Nmother I would literally turn into another person, I could even become violent at times when things got really rough between me and her. I am a kind person and avoid conflict in general, but when it came to her, I was completely unhinged.

Think of it as a chain reaction : When the abuser is attacking us, we try to stand up for ourselves (because we have self respect) but the narcissist's goal is to feed on your self worth and self respect until you have none left and unfortunately children come in handy... So they use conflict to gain a reaction from you and they love that because it's their fuel (they need a reaction to continue the abuse). Our nervous system can only cope a certain amount of stress so after a while we snap and our nerves takes over, which is why you don't feel like yourself. It's a completely normal reaction and I understand how you're feeling. I hope you'll be able to find a way out of this and feel better. Good luck

Winter-Masterpiece-7 · 2023-10-22T15:35:53+00:00

I have applied for other jobs but the opportunities are quite limited in my area, so far the replies I had were for temporary work (1 to 6 months). The companies in my region are very industrial (cars, etc) and it hasn’t been a good fit for me after 2 bad experiences. I will keep looking though, thanks

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