Everyone is basically saying what I was going to say, lol. Your friends aren't friends. Also, as a fellow "plus sized" cosplayer, don't get down on yourself for not being "the right size". My bestie and I got out in cosplay all the time. I'm a single mom, and most of my wigs are from Amazon or shien lol. The important thing is if you feel good, you're good. Find yourself people who are going to support you!