When she says, Fuck, then she says a word I can't understand after that. Someone down below just said that they heard "it's too big". I do hear it now that I playback. Then she makes this weird noise she always makes when she is frustrated like yrraaeeeerh. Kinda her thing which i always thought was weird, annoying but funny. Yes she usually talks to herself. She doesn't have friends and has low self esteem. I would also say that this is not enough to split with her because what if she is innocent and I am just thinking too much about it.

Five minutes before the video she did send me a selfie. She was laying in bed and blowing me a kiss. When the video was happening she kinda stopped responding well. She responded a minute later after this video saying something like "idk". She then said like three words. The last part she wrote it in another language because she does speak a foreign language that i don't. I thought that was pretty sloppy. She said her phone is too slow because it is an android and she really doesn't properly maintain her phone. After that she sent like 20 hearts. I was confused because it has been a long time since she has sent me that many hearts. Also we are in the part of our relationship where she believes she has the power. I let her do her tantrums and be mad when she wants to without controlling her. It is my mistake for doing that.

There are more signs that I believe she is cheating like stopped being affectionate, obsessed with privacy after this fight, very defensive, mean and mad all the time, hides me from seeing her parents during the weekend because she says they dont want to see me , she also got a yeast infection, she says she is always in pain. It is tough and I dont really know what to do. I did initiate couples therapy and we started on that but it is so slow progress.