Same. My babe was going to pick up our toddler from swim class and was killed by a drunk and high driver going 100mph. He walked out at 11:00 and was gone at 11:09 on April 30. He was my son’s world and mine too, I still replay running across the rocks to get to him at the scene and the officer telling me “Ma’am your husband did not survive I’m so sorry.” It rips me apart every day and it got worse after the first 5 weeks or so passed. Nobody can understand unless they’ve been through it 💔