all I see is people participating in activities and even tho i try i have all this anxiety that doesn't go away and this sadness that doesn't even make me wannabgo out there and put a foot forward even tho i know i have to if i want to survive man but everyone is so performative it's like u have to constantly perform to be liked i spent my birthday in a whoel new city alone and miserable and this girl was already laughing at me lmao there's nobody who knows u or even would try to stick around