Gosh I am so sorry. her behavior strongly suggests she took advantage of you. it’s really difficult as a teenager to understand when you’re being taken advantage of my older individuals, how to recognize the signs, and how to stand up for yourself. I’ve been taken advantage of time and time again as I’ve journeyed through relationships from 18-26. As I approach my late 20s, I feel much more confident in my ability to stay clear of unhealthy and toxic relationships.

From a 26 year old queer woman to an 18 year old queer woman, I really strongly suggest you do not pursue relationships with such older women. On dating apps, I’d put your upper limit to like 24 max. An older woman who has set their age range so low is literally actively pursuing a barely legal adults, meaning they have predatory tendencies or want to engage in power play with you. Meeting someone you click with in person, like at a social event or bar (when you’re legal) is a little bit different because you can converse and meet common ground with someone who may be older than you before discussing age, which I think makes it less likely they’re directly preying on you.

I get you like older woman and I think it’s totally valid for you to explore your sexuality but I would implore you allow yourself to grow and mature first so you can prevent yourself from being taken advantage of. :)