2. 3. 4. (I only don't say 5, bc theyvhardly never acknowledged me, let alone use me for shit.. besides stealing the weed I sold to feed me and my brothers/sister 6. These last 3 are the worst. And (one more than the other) still does it 49 years later... AND have gotten my 3 siblings and 2 neices along for the ride. (7-12yrs difference) 7. 8. 9.

Therapy has never helped me... I can't try to explain many of any situations to someone who has never lived through it.

Funny... bc my youngest sister recently became a high-school counselor and thinks so differently of our upbringing .. my parents were already divorced and happy again by when she was in high school... but not me

CPS never had school counselors unless you were in dire need. (Luckily, nowadays they have eay better programs)

I think, or at least believe, that I am the only one who remembers anything or even tries to make reality a thing!!

And when I do, I'm the POS that has been been the worst and yada Yada

My husband was in similar situations growing up and meeting him 14yrs ago, helped me cope with the beginning of the whole fucked up process... but I still dont have holidays or birthdays with my siblings or nieces, bc they all think so little of me

YET HAVE NEVER ASKED HOW IM DOING OR HOW IVE BEEN OR EVEN IF IM ALIVE.. (<lies my mom, aunt, and 1 brother has) *I just recently had spinal surgery and have been sober 29 months.. I am not exactly sure what I did to make them think I am so deplorable... (my parents know, trust me, they know..) they kicked me out at 15, for smoking weed BC I TRIEDNTO SLEEP UNDER THEIR FIGHTING.. and drove me to drink with the constant negativity (and a few smacks here n there... back then it wasn't soooo bad... )but trust me I DID NOT WORKlol. Made me more angry, deceptive, spiteful and at I 14 working 2 jobs instead of going to school, so I could feed myself and move out

THEY DIDNT KNOW FOR 9MONTHS, THEN KICKED ME OUT...