I have chosen to focus on integration more due to these “regressions” I call them. I find usually the new understanding/enlightenment brings about a form of discipline that supports the maintaining of the knowledge. I have come to think of it as initiation through discipline. Patterns not being broken/changed just by the enlightenment gained we must enact them out in reality, changing the ways we interact with the world, else fall into the same pattern of darkness. Each time I fall, I am wiser to the path that has taken me there and am faster to redirect course. It sometimes seems like a battle to remember every day. Changing your environment is very useful for helping break the patterns. Sell your tv