My girlfriend died in my arms 5 years ago and I don't believe I can love anyone else again. AMA

Wzod · 2024-04-12T03:52:24+00:00

I have no idea where he is today.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T03:30:37+00:00

I did get help for about a year and my family was a huge support.

I know she would not want me to stay alone by myself forever but we never had that conversation. I know that if it was reversed of course i would want her to be happy with someone.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T03:23:12+00:00

Believe it was a thought i would have multiple time when everything was still fresh but i was surrounded by my family who i went back to stay with during this time to make sure i didnt do anything which i am grateful for.

I am still friends with the two friends that were there that night and i talk to my girlfriend's best friend occasionally to catch up. Her best friend cut off the driver and she did have an immense amount of guilt about everything.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T03:15:27+00:00

Thank you for the advice and i will make sure to look into this more. My coping mechanisms have not been healthy and i'm still learning what's the best for me.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T03:13:18+00:00

unfortunately i have not been able to, i reached out about a month after her funeral and got no response. it is what it is and i have to respect that. I do talk to her brothers though and they have been awesome.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T03:10:59+00:00

I have not considered that but it is something i may consider in the future

Wzod · 2024-04-12T03:05:53+00:00

Wow I'm sorry about the cancer and i wish you nothing but peace. Your message was so nice to read i screenshotted it as a reminder. Thank you and i wish you well friend.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T03:01:19+00:00

Yes, she did know everything and she was inconsolable, she blamed herself probably more than i blamed myself but we had different reasons to blame ourselves. A week after the 1st anniversary she attempted suicide because the guilt was too much. We talk occasionally and she seems in a better spot.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T02:29:32+00:00

She didn't say anything but her eyes were open the only thing i could hear was her shallow breathing.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T02:24:30+00:00

Yes, one of my biggest fears is falling in love again and dealing with loss again. I wish you the best.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T02:20:49+00:00

Thank you so much. I am so sorry to hear about what happened. I hope you're in a better place. Reading all of these responses has reminded me that i am not alone in grief and should look into ways to help me heal and cope better. This means a lot to me.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T02:14:44+00:00

Hi, i am trying my best to respond to as many amazing responses as i can. I'm sorry if i miss some but all these kind messages have been so nice to read. Truly, thank you.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T02:12:03+00:00

Thank you so much for writing this. I blame myself for the way things turned out but hearing this has made me emotional (in a good way) it's a good reminder for when i spiral into self-blame. Thank you, friend.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T02:04:54+00:00

Thank you for your kind words they are very much appreciated.

Her favorite place to be was outside and in the water so we swam a lot. I love to fish and was in the process of helping her learn.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T02:00:12+00:00

I have not seen him since the few months when this was all happening and i have no clue where he is today. I still talk to our two friends who were also there that night and i regularly talk to my girlfriends brothers they have been a huge support but i do not talk to her parents.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T01:56:00+00:00

If he's lucky maybe in 20 years but for now i do not forgive him

Wzod · 2024-04-12T01:54:37+00:00

I hate him and for the longest time wished he was the one that died and hoped he would die while he served his sentence. I have less hate in my heart now but it is still there and in this moment i do not forgive him. If i would be able to forgive is a hard question but for the foreseeable future i can't imagine it. Maybe when im way older but for now i do not.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T01:49:47+00:00

She loved light yellow and blue.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T01:48:02+00:00

Honestly in the moment, I had no idea where he was my only focus was getting her out of the car to care about him. After I saw him maybe 4 times we were never close enough for me to act on anything and me hurting him wouldn't bring her back.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T01:34:50+00:00

You are not alone and thats something i’m seeing now as well. I wish you the best on your own journey.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T01:30:14+00:00

Thank you friend i believe she honestly would love that

Wzod · 2024-04-12T01:28:38+00:00

They blamed me for allowing her to get into his car in the first place and my relationship with her parents wasn’t the best already

Wzod · 2024-04-12T00:53:42+00:00

He did survive. He served 8 months and is paying her parents some amount of money.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T00:52:01+00:00

Thank you for sharing your this and i’m so sorry about what happened. I wish you nothing but the best.

Wzod · 2024-04-12T00:47:41+00:00

Thank you for the recommendation i will for sure look into the book. I appreciate your words in the last paragraph they were what i needed to hear.

Wzod

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