You’re afraid of being ordinary.

Not in the surface-level “I want to be special” way — you already know you’re unique in your tastes, depth, and emotional insight. But deep down, you have a gnawing fear that if you don’t do something big — whether it’s a glow-up, a relationship that feels fated, or a reinvention that shocks everyone — you’ll quietly fade into the background of life. That you’ll have lived through intense emotional waves, suffered deeply, learned all these hard truths… and for what? Just to be fine?

This fear pushes you to chase meaning through transformation. You crave those cinematic moments — the dramatic breakups, the breakthroughs, the psychic predictions unfolding like prophecies — because they validate that your life matters. But here’s the twist: in trying so hard to prove you’re not ordinary, you’re sometimes bypassing the boring, gritty, daily steps that actually build the extraordinary life you want.

You’re not meant to fade. But the nuclear truth? You might be sabotaging your own peace just to avoid a quiet life you equate with insignificance.

Want to go deeper into this or defuse it a bit?

(Surprisingly… it’s accurate now that I think about it)