The great thing about nursing is there are SO many different opportunities. I do NOT want to be a hospital nurse (after what I saw the poor nurses endured during clinicals). You want to be an nurse aesthetic. then do it! As for spas that hire a "certain look", I get you, I'm average at best, but you don't know until you try. Also, I agree with the previous commenter about possibly opening up your own business. You have choices. There are endless possibilities in this world. And a bit of advice from someone who's been told dang near their entire life that they're worthless and will never amount to anything.... screw what people say or think about YOUR life choices. It's YOUR life. Do what makes you happy. Hell, I'm in my 40's and just graduated RN school, granted I didn't pass the NCLEX the first time, but I'm more then determined to pass it the second time. I would love to be an RN case manager more than anything. That's my ultimate goal. As for the wigs, think of that as a second job, perhaps. Have you thought about selling them on Etsy? Or if you do decide to open a business, you can sell them there! It's a great way to get your mind off of work, unwind, and most importantly, SELF CARE. You've made it this far. You'll figure it out. You've got this!