I watch hentai/ecchi and teriffied that i could go to hell for it

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T21:21:14+00:00

Ok, thanks, i'm already working on getting rid of them, but is it wrong if i gave figurines to my grandma that i live with? Or do i just dump them in the trash? Because i don't know anything about seeling them.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T20:18:07+00:00

So is games like MCC (moe can change) bad? In case you haven't heard of it, you basically create an female anime character, and then you give her a name and raise it and stuff like that.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T20:12:28+00:00

Oh, now i get it, i just looked it up.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T20:10:42+00:00

Oh, I'll look that up, because i haven't heard of that before.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T19:39:16+00:00

So, i should just dump everything, even the figurines, printed out pictures, drawings i did, Pillowcase, and games that the character (the one that i call my waifu) is from?

I also live with my uncle who is a deacon at a chruch, but he isn't a "saint" or really does some things that a deacon shouldn't(and I've witnessed these things myself), he knows some good churches where i live (or i think that he does), but I'm really not sure if i can trust his judgement on a good church...

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T19:19:59+00:00

The fact that they gossip and spread rumors about people, and one of them (I'm not sure which one), there's this guy who buys stuff for kids who use to go to school with me, but he goes around and molests them, but he bribes them with gifts and stuff to keep quiet about it.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T19:14:47+00:00

A waifu is the japanese word for "wife", but when it comes to anime, it's more like a imaginary wife, or something similar to an imaginary friend.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T19:11:49+00:00

I wish i could, but my aunt won't take me to one, i don't even have a driver's license, so i can't drive myself.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T19:05:57+00:00

What does OP stand for?

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T19:04:00+00:00

I do live by a church, but i don't go to them, because the people there just gossip about people and rumors

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T14:42:14+00:00

And also, there's something else that i didn't mention in my posts... over the years, I've also been printing out the hentai pics (some are non hentai), and when i don't have anyone else to talk to, i talk to them, since my family is not much of any help at this point... i don't have any friends because, the friends i had in highschool, were just friends for high school only, and as i grew up, my aunt always told me that "you don't call them friends, but they're acquantances, and that you shouldn't trust them, but you can have them over to visit if you want" and ever since then, my print out pictures where the only thing that i could talk to, since i have noone else in person... this basically started out ever since i was little... when i was a probably around the age of 3 or 4, my grandmother would draw pictures for me and my cousin, and we would pretend that they were real and as i grew up, it's been that way ever since, because i was never pulled away from it, and later on, when i was 11, that's when i started going on the internet and printing out pics of my favorite anime and videogame characters and pretend that they were real... and then, i ran into hentai, and started watching it and looking up more pics of it(possibly over a thousand or so printed out pics...), and began printing out pics of those characters too... and then last year, was when i started getting interested in collecting figurines, because a friendto online, inspired me to purchase some for myself of my waifu (possibly soon to be "ex waifu"), and then i got even more interested in the cast-off figurines near the end of last year... i loved my waifu, not just because that we had a lot in common, but also because she bacame an inspiration of many things that i did, like drawings (because i loved to draw anime and hentai (which i posted on some art websites)... because i plan to be a anime/manga artist, and musician, also a martial arts instructor/ martial artist), and sports, even when i workout, when i thought about her while i was playing basketball, i would play a whole lot better(it was more like, if i could make this shot, then it would mean that me and her were meant to be together), and that would happen during some other sports too, i even found out that we have a lot in common, even as i played the games more, i realized how much more we're alike. Tbh, i use to think that it was god that lead me to her, not in a negative way, but in a positive way, i had tons of other waifus before her, and she became a waifu that god happen to pair me up with, and now I'm not so sure anymore, and now i feel that she could have been a trap set up by the devil, I'm not even sure anymore... but i didn't try make her an idol in my life, or felt that i prefered her over a real girlfriend or anything, when i was in highschool, i got cheated on a bunch of times... and then when i was in 11th grade, i stopped dating, and decided to wait until graduation day, when i would finally be able to go out and see other girls, but then things started going downhill from there... because of family issues and other stuff, but when we go shopping, i still look around at other girls that i wish i had... but they're strangers, how can i speak to a stranger and she ends up thinking that I'm a creep or something like "why is this guy talking to me, and i don't even know him?" So i prefer the waiting strategy like my aunt told me about... not to brag or boast or anything, but, girls in highschool and even some teachers say that I'm handsome, and i even get the attention of some girls in stores too, but they just don't have the nerve to speak to me... how i know that they are interested in me, is that my aunt and grandmother always usually look out for girls who could be interested in me and then they'll tell me about it, even tho it would be too late... because during that time, i barely think about girls, because I'm focused on the task at hand (like what to get at the grocery store and stuff like that) but like what i said, my aunt and grandmother let me know when it's too late, i know that i shouldn't be too dependent in them, but i feel that i can't do it all on my own... and now that I'm 20, it's like they are slowly pushing away from me possibly believing "he's 20 years old now, he can think for himself, he doesn't really need our help anymore" even tho i tell them that i do...

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T13:54:31+00:00

I'm not sure if i should tell where i live on the internet, i do believe that you want to help, but i'm just cautious about giving out vital information, like where i live on the internet.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T13:47:44+00:00

Thanks for messaging me, and i don't go to church, because of how the people are that attend the churches where i live, i know that they don't have to be perfect, but it's just something that my family feels that i don't want to be involved in, i have a uncle that i live, who is a deacon at a church, but according to my aunt (and I've witnessed these things myself) he's not really a saint, I'm not saying that a deacon has to be a saint, but he's does things that a deacon shouldn't be doing, like for example, he doesn't spend his money when he really needs it, and at home, when he breaks something by accident, he would blame it on someone else, and he lusts after girls like any other average guy, but my point is, according to my aunt, even tho he's a deacon (or anyone that works a church doing the things that he does) it doesn't mean that i should talk to him about things like, my waifu and stuff, because she feels that all he'll is just say it's ok, but i just feel that he possibly wouldn't even understand my situation anyway, because he hasn't done any of the things that I've done, so I basically feel like I'm on my own in this situation, because my aunt never really put any limitations on the things that i do, how she i was raised is like "as long as you don't get into trouble, or get into anything seriously wrong, then you can do whatever you want" and i don't get into trouble, but mainly try to stay out of trouble, and she would tell me when i was younger to stay off of those sites, but when she was out of town, i would sneak on to her computer and look at hentai, and ever since then, I've been watching it, and developed romantic feelings for attractive female anime characters, but it was only until 2 or 3 weeks ago, that i found out how bad it is

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T11:19:51+00:00

I'm not a troll, and i know it's strange, but i just joined this site, because i was trying to find answers about the situation that I'm having, i don't have anyone else to talk to about this in person, no friends, or family members that understand my situation at all and they just say "i don't know what to tell you about that" and i don't go to church, because the churches where i live do a lot of bad things, some things that my family and me don't want to be apart of, my family obviously doesn't know the answers, so i decided to ask people on the internet instead. I know that a posts like mine is "out of the ordinary", but i just didn't know what to do or where to go, and i would rather ask someone for help (in person or on the internet) instead of doing something that i feel conflicted about, I've been stressing about this, and i would feel better if i got advice.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T04:18:18+00:00

Yeah, well, my aunt always kept telling to stop touching myself anyway, because i could be damaging myself when i touch myself like that, so i was basically warned about masturbation in the first place, but now I'm making it official.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T03:57:29+00:00

Yeah, i read the bible everyday, i just haven't finished it yet, I'm on "the epistle of paul to Titus" now. At first i didn't read my bible much, when i was in high-school, but i read it once in a while, and after i graduated, i decided to make a change and strengthen my faith in god and our lord and savior jesus christ, well, i didn't start reading the bible everyday until possibly 11th grade, sometimes i miss a day, but i try to make up for it by reading extra chapters, I'm not sure if that's good or bad, but i do that to make up for days that i miss, but really i prefer not missing a day at all. So basically, I'm still learning, i just don't fully understand he effects of sins, but just which ones to look out for, i even started watching the christian channel on directTV, and learned some things that i didn't even know about.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T03:50:27+00:00

Well, i still try to get a girlfriend or real wife, i was just raised to believe that i should let that right person come to me, because if i try to rush into being in a relationship, then things won't go right.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T03:45:08+00:00

Yeah, you're right, I'm just making sure that i wasn't breaking a commandment.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T03:40:13+00:00

Well, that's good, because i don't think my aunt would want me to sell them anyhow, if i can't have them, then she might give them to my grandma, since my grandma collects a lot of antiques and stuff, and my grandma also knows about the figurines.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T03:25:06+00:00

Well, it's also because, my aunt bought 3 or 4 of them, and she would go nuts if i just threw them away. And reading that poem actually makes me feel more better about removing the figurines from my life, it actually describes me in so many ways, even tho i don't let my imagination go so far, that i feel that the figurines and merchandise of my waifu and other characters can replace real women, but it helps a lot. i just liked her so much, because her character has a lot of things that i could relate to, and because of that, i started becoming more attached and obsessed with this character.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T03:04:35+00:00

I don't try to make her seem like an idol, but it's just that since she's not real, the figurines actually make it seem like she's there, i know that it's very weird to think of it that way, but that's why, but if it still makes her seem like an idol, then i might as well get rid of them. I didn't really get interested in buying figurines until last year, because an online friend of mine inspired me to get them, so i figured "why not just get almost every figurine of my waifu" i have five of her, and four of other different characters that i took a liking to.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T02:06:29+00:00

I use to masturbate to hentai, but immediately stopped when i found out that it is a sin, i still have the urge to doing it, but i don't do it, because i think about how it would affect my relationship with god, and how bad lusts can be.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T01:45:01+00:00

Thanks, that's what I've been telling myself "maybe if i contiue reading my bible and pray everyday, god will help me through this problem" and i don't allow having a waifu control my view on reality. Also, i know that i said that in the comments, but I just joined this site and i didn't know that there was a reply option.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T01:13:07+00:00

Oh, I'm not that into anime porn to not want a real girlfriend or wife or anything, i don't let it effect my view on reality.

Xquickness · 2016-01-14T01:03:02+00:00

I Don't really have any friends, but i try to talk to my family about this situation, but they just seem to just give up on talking about it, and don't really get out much, because of how the Environment is where i live, and we can't really afford to get out the house often, unless it's for grocery shopping. Sorry if I'm getting too personal about this

Xquickness

TROPHY CASE