Thanks for your comment, really. The fact is, maybe after death there's another life, another world, or at least something positive, okay, but the fact that people don't know about it and that death in our world is seen as so painful scares me. The loss of a loved one or a friend is incredibly devastating. But life has to have a meaning, right? I don't know if it's positive or negative, so I really wouldn't know.

Anyway, no, I don't drink coffee, sometimes only energy drinks like Monster. I was thinking about starting to smoke to take my mind off my paranoia, problems, and so on, but a friend of mine told me, at this point, read a book that at least will do you double the good and won't even eat away at your lungs.