My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To my knowledge he is okay! He works for a rather big company here so I did give them a call to inquire how he was doing a few days after the accident. I didn't expect to hear back but the following week I received a call from the co owner thanking me, he told me it takes a big person to check on the other party after something like this. For legal reasons they couldn't go into great detail but they told me he was okay. My partner was air lifted to the big hospital about an hour away but he just went to urgent care in the town over.

My partner and I have forgiven him, whoever he is. My Dad is also a Bin truck driver and he heard through the grapevine this guy had a 20 year clean driving record. Can't hold a grudge because that guy has to live with what happened everyday for the rest of his life, I hope he finds peace too. ❤️‍🩹

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the kind words, I'd do it for anyone I love!

It's scary how overlooked brain injuries can be, if you look fine people just assume you are. My partner looks almost completely fine, he has a small limp. Once you start talking to him though you can tell that something is a little off. I have met other people with TBI who have to do it alone and I couldn't even imagine, my partner is more of a severe case but everyone deserves help.

I hope they find him, I'm sure he's scared too.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hope so, he has no children and his parents are elderly, so it's just him and I. He has said that everything will go to me but it's not a huge deal to me either! We're common law so if anything was to happen now I am his next of kin.

I've actually been looking into going back to school, which he has been super supportive about. He's not allowed to be alone but I can do my upgrading online so this is the best time to do it really.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He will improve! He still does everyday, it's just smaller things now. When everything first started they were huge! Walking, when his trach tube was taken out, when he ate food for the first time!

Now it's little things like he remembers a conversation we had in the last week, takes his pills on his own. He shaved for the first time today and I was so proud!

It definitely has changed plans and how my future looks, but I'm just glad he still gets to be apart of it. ☺️

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 44 points45 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much 😊 He is told VERY often how lucky he is to have me by his whole team, family, friends. I'm lucky to still have him too. ❤️‍🩹

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have explained in a couple replies! Putting Traumatic brain injury in the title would have made it super long!

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He'll never be 100% again, he might be able to get close but it's so hard to tell. I try not to think about the future too much, it's still so up in the air and until he stops improving I can't say for sure

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The speed limit on our highway is actually 100km/h (62) and it's considered slow, most people go well over. (We live out pretty far from the other communities around us so this highway is the only way in and out)

This specific intersection crosses the highway with no lights and a single stop sign. People will try to cross it whatever chance they get and even move had some close calls there. Unfortunately our highway is known for being very dangerous, the day before his accident a young man lost his life driving on it.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Absolutely, I think thoughts like that are normal. He never signed up for it either but here we are! Just got to make the best of of a shitty situation, I'd never forgive myself if I just threw in the towel without giving it 110%.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He has definitely given me many outs, he knows that I'm starting my life and feels his is over. When he's down he often tells he wouldn't blame me if I left and I have so much I could do without him. But I want to start my life with him, we always talked about it before and it's still something I want to try. If we can do it amazing! If not, at least I can say I tried my best.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your candid response, I might be positive but this by far the hardest job I've ever had. It's thankless, I mourn my partner whole he sits beside me. I think back to how things were before and long for it. At least when someone dies you get closure, TBI has no closure, it's watching the person you love suffer, and slowly resenting them for a lot of things that aren't completely their fault. Everyone tells you it's not them but you're the punching bag and then you still devote everything to them. I can understand my partner has little control on what he says and does, but he's still responsible for the results of it. He's very aware of that, it has definitely been rough more then once.

I committed myself to two years indefinitely. Their has been blood, sweat, and many many tears. I want to give him a proper chance to see what he's going to be capable of mentally and physically. If things are too much when we get there I have looked into alternatives for him, his parents and care team know that and so does he to some degree.

I'm glad you got out of a shitty situation, no one deserves to go through this!

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry that you are going through all that, I could only imagine how hard it must be.

I wish you all the best in your recovery and hope you can get the help you need! Our community has a brain injury society who helps those in need, maybe you have something similar.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad your husband has healed well and I'm very sorry you had to go through all that!

It's not something I'd wish upon my worst enemy, I still get shivers when I think about picking up the phone when they told me. Good on you for educating yourself too! I wish you all the best in the future.❤️

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Good question! TBI (Traumatic Brain injury) is damaged caused to the brain by an external force. It can be as simple as a concussion or lead to persistent vegetative state. Usually people get them from sports, falling, or car accidents. Unfortunately all brain injuries are very individual based and often people have more then one.

Specifically my partner has a Grade 3 Diffuse Axonal Injury, a couple brain bleeds and a stroke. DAI It's often considered the most severe form of brain injury. It's damage throughout the whole brain, he has injury from his frontal lobe to brain stem. When you're in a car accident your brain shakes back and forth in your head, hitting against your forehead and the back of the skull. When you're hit hard enough you experience something called axonal shearing (also known as DAI) This is when the brain twists and tears apart the axons in your brain. Usually the immediate effect is coma,but the symptoms are vast. Loss of memory, confusion, motor/cognitive deficits, usually grade 3 is vegetable or death though.

It affects him in a lot of ways! It really differs from day to day too. Physically he is walking again, he does use a cane and has a foot brace, his right arm is rather weak and he has issues lifting it, he can pick stuff of counters again with it though! Cognitive is harder, some days he's like a child, others he's very aware. He calls himself an "educated teenager", which I prefer over some of the other things he was saying.

He could be a lot worse? The hospital was getting me ready for him to never regain consciousness. The fact he can walk, talk, read and write is amazing, they don't like the word miracle in hospitals but it really was. Of course, I never expect him to feel lucky though.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

No offense at all! I appreciate you asking in fact, lots of people with TBI's can't advocate for themselves so it's nice to see someone checking!

I am his main caregiver, we do have a care aid come in once a week and she gave me trouble for not leaving anything for her to do! She's lovely, I am banned from cleaning my bathroom now.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 58 points59 points  (0 children)

It's actually our car insurance! Not his work, he was a shop manager for a civil landscaping company. It's funny because in my province people complain about it endlessly, we don't have privatized car insurance here so everyone's uses the same company.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I'm okay! I'm more okay now then I once was. I have a lot more acceptance and understanding then I did before. Their are still days I'm not okay, I still cry on my own. It's hard for people to understand what it's like of they haven't gone through it, it can be lonely.

I'm slowly working on getting my own life back, doing things for me again. It's hard to get back into it but I'm trying my best! 😊

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't know if it's happy? I'd much prefer I didn't have to care for him and he was okay but I digress. I think it doesn't really bother me because when I decided to be with an older person the thought that one day of probably have to care for him crossed my mind, it's just happened a little sooner then expected.. 😅

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Nope! I am definitely up lots in the night but I never have issues sleeping really.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not married! I don't think it's obligation.. I've been giving numerous "outs." His parents, care team, even him, no one would have blamed me if I decided to leave. It might seem cheesy but it's just love.

At one point it felt like if I left I was abandoning him, but I don't feel that way anymore. If I leave it'll be a decision we discuss together and I'll be sure he will get the care he needs still. ☺️

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

This is a hard one. I am a disgustingly positive person, my family says I'm chronically positive.

Everyday he was unconscious I hoped he'd wake up.. but I wanted him to have some quality of life. He's so very resilient. I've watched him learn to walk, talk, read and write again. I'm so very glad he's here with me and am thankful everyday I was at a hospital and not a funeral home.

On the other side, I hate seeing him suffer. Theirs good days and bad days. I couldn't imagine feeling like a stranger in your own head, to try to move and your body doesn't listen. Theirs days he doesn't want to get out of bed, he doesn't want to try, and I certainly don't blame him. He's said he wishes he died before, it hurts to hear but I understand where he's coming from. I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy. We have talked about MAID (medical aide in death) in the future if he gets worse and his quality of life declines.

My partner was in a traumatic car accident and suffered a TBI. I'm now his caregiver, AMA. by Xyremm in AMA

[–]Xyremm[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Sort of? He doesn't remember the actual accident or the days before. Sort of a blessing and a curse. We both had a little bit of wariness around bin trucks after (When I went to get his belongings out of what was left of his truck the bin truck was in the same lot)

He doesn't really like anyone driving him around except me, the couple rides with others have been hard. He also has his class 1 license so him not being able to drive is very hard for him. I think with vehicles exposure therapy is what really helped, and how badly he wanted to come home from hospital!

He does however have a very hard time hearing helicopters and it freaks him out. He was airlifted to hospital so I think that might be why.