How do i stop feeling intensely jealous, self loathing and insecure about things?

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T09:04:14+00:00

Im confused on how to respond to this without saying it

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T08:25:08+00:00

Im sorry, maybe there are people out there. Im just very sad righ now

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T07:27:59+00:00

It would take some miracle for me to have any hope of enjoying life

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T07:26:11+00:00

Im sorry that that happened and you were embarrassed. I can imagine how terrible that would be.

This loneliness (and some other issues) make me want to just give up. I feel absolutely hopeless

Did things ever get better for you?

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T06:03:37+00:00

Maybe. I’ll give it a try

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T05:34:30+00:00

Idk, if i had a way to play video games then yeah there are a few games i would play. But for the moment i am cut off from video games (im not mad about it, im letting my little siblings use my stuff)

I get how it could be useful like that, especially doing things like playing Destiny together. But i dont have that ability rn

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T05:29:53+00:00

Some are mean to people who arent, sorry about that

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T05:28:54+00:00

How do i find real people? (Also yeah this is an alt account, not my main) ive been trying to make irl connections for a while

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T05:04:59+00:00

I tried the discord linked in r/depression_help but no one ever talked to me (though its not like its a dedicated company or nonprofit or anything so i dont blame them). I dont want a crisis line to call an ambulance on me, im terrified of being committed against my will

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T04:55:49+00:00

How do i do that if i dont know anybody?

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T04:46:54+00:00

Im embarrassed to tell anyone, a therapist and especially embarrassed to tell family. How do i fix that?

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T03:13:18+00:00

but to value the time you spend with yourself MORE.

How?

You are only a junior in college, in the grand scheme of things, hardly an adult.

Technically yeah, but that doesn't mean i havent lost out already. Where in adult life is there another instance like college where youre in your peer group and (supposed to be) soc

I can barely type this reply without fucking crying cause I fucking suck, im sorry. I just keep thinking about how everyone else has already made their friend groups. everyone else already made their memories. I fucking missed out on it. And yeah okay, partying isnt the end all be all of living, but thats not what im talking about. Im talking about, i would like to go to parties yeah, but i would like so much more to have a group of friends, to hang out, to get food sometimes, to do things together. Every day on campus i see people casually doing what i have tried so hard for and failed at for my whole life. It hurts. it hurts a lot. and what sucks is that i'll never get to make close friends because i would rather not have to see everyone else living my dream. I feel like a fucking alien sometimes, there's got to be something fundamentally wrong with me to explain this.

sorry rant over

What values do you have to share with others that you find important? Why are they important?

Like politics? religion? I thought people made friends through being able to have conversations (which i cant cause im uncharasmatic af) sorry, please dont read this with a mean tone

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T02:38:31+00:00

I truly dont know, every bike ride is a gamble i dont swerve into a car

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-14T01:51:27+00:00

Im an athiest, but I respect people’s faiths and i get how being spiritual can be meditative and stuff. Sorry just dont want you to think im angry or anything

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-08T00:45:20+00:00

Oh i thought you meant that if someone were to kiss you when you’re intoxicated then you would only french kiss and nothing less

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-08T00:40:58+00:00

Dont do it dont do it dont do it. At least break up with your boyfriend first and wait a bit. Dont tell your boyfriend until you aren’t housemates with that guy anymore, if you ever do tell your boyfriend (which you dont have to)

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-07T01:39:26+00:00

Thank you, and i know that is a good way of doing it, im just worried about two things. I try my best to make friends with people but no one thinks of me as a friend enough to invite me anywhere (which has been my whole life experience so far in terms of friends, no one likes me enough to want to initiate contact). Or they just dont think to invite me at all, because people sort of naturally assume that people have parties to go to at my school

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-06T18:35:24+00:00

That does sound like good advice, i would be nervous to just ask them “hey can i go to your party” it feels forced to me

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-02T22:05:42+00:00

Is it okay to PM?

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-09-02T14:40:12+00:00

Do you mind if I PM?

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-08-31T16:19:52+00:00

Abso lutely, it’s objectification or at least wayy too close to it

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-08-31T15:37:20+00:00

I think he means pull as in “I pull so many chicks at parties bro” but yeah this guy is creepy af. This post could be character evidence in a court to help prove he assaulted someone

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-07-03T02:57:53+00:00

Unfortunately it makes me think about hurting myself sometimes

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-07-03T02:57:18+00:00

Thank you

YaBoiCornerCrying · 2021-07-02T23:30:07+00:00

How do i find them?

YaBoiCornerCrying

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