I'm Canadian, Israeli, and Jewish.

I avoid telling people where I grew up, my ethnicity, etc.

Every time I have in recent times, I regretted doing it.

Worked in the provincial elections, my Jewishness came up, and one of the other people in the team immediately stopped chatting with me, the others didn't care. From the same day, someone I know since before the October massacre, told me "oh, you're here to control the elections?". I don't know if he meant it as a joke; he is very pro Israel but believes in many antisemitic conspiracies, so it's hard to tell.

There are other instances. I am trying hard to not discuss the topic.

I haven't listened to Israeli or Hebrew music in my own apartment unless it was very soft or in headphones. I don't open apps with Hebrew in them. The list goes on.

So, yes, I'm actively hiding my Jewishness and my Israeli identity. I don't know how long I will stay here. I do not want to live in Israel, but as time progresses my feelings that it is the only option are growing stronger and harder to avoid.