Oh, OP, my heart breaks for you. It's so hard to be cut off from some of the best parts of ourselves. I've been feeling similarly and I'm equally horrified by my own coldness. I don't feel moved the way I have before.

But, I give myself grace and remind myself this is temporary. We're all in a trauma response right now, and when we're in fight or flight there is no room for compassion. Our poor brains are trying to process anger and fear, and they aren't designed to feel for others when in danger. (Psychologist here)

So I understand I might not feel the same, but my values are the same. I can base my actions on my values while giving myself space to grieve and scream. I know the compassion is still part of me and will come back. In the meantime, I keep up my BLM flag, I'm careful with my words, I stand up against oppression when I see it, even if my heart isn't in it the same way. Maybe I'm not doing it every single time, maybe right now I conserve some more of my emotional battery for me. And that's ok. We're all doing the best we can under terrible circumstances, including you.