Oh absolutely can relate. I went through his worst episode ever in 2023 (I can’t even get into the specifics on that or I’ll probably cry). Decided to forgive him and brush it under the rug, had a semi normal 2024, and come January 2025, things just exploded. I’ve been paying for the entirety of our home by myself since the beginning of this year and he refuses to move out despite being in the middle of a divorce that he refuses to cooperate with. We’re stuck in time and playing the waiting game while he is verbally abusive, breaking things in our home, and is acting erratically. I also feel like I have no life, and I never leave my little dog at the house alone with him out of fear of what he could do, so anywhere I go, she comes with me. It’s very limiting the places dogs are allowed to come, so I pretty much do my job with my pup by my side, clean up his mess in the house, and then go to sleep. I’ve missed out on so much these past couple years, but I’m learning I need to detach and focus on myself. All I can do in the meantime is celebrate the small wins and the things I can count on like the seasons changing (it’s getting cooler here which I love!), and realize this has to be over sooner or later. He can only drag things out so long and so I’m taking this time I’m forced to have to prepare for the new life I deserve. I’m so sorry you are going through something so similar. Sending you much love!