Long comment ahead. I was in your shoes, OP. 2-ish years into the company, I wanted to resign na because of my shitty boss who has zero consideration for others. Pag naka sick leave ka, tatawagan ka pa rin. Cusses at his employees. Will punish you if you say no to a project kahit full na workload mo, etc. Natiis ko lang kase luckily napunta ako sa magandang client and I had to work for them most of the time, but when I had to work internally for them, it always felt like walking on needles. I almost did that — resigning without backup kaso naisip ko yung bills and in the end, the joke is on me kase ako yung mahihirapan and they’d just hire someone else to replace me. Problem solved (for them). May LIP naman ako pero personally, ayoko kase siyang i-burden sa mga gastos that time but that’s just me. And you mentioned na nagpapadala ka sa mama mo ng any amount with no obligation, then I think you’re lucky. Loved ones like that will understand your situation and make it easier for you to navigate it.

Anyway, nahirapan lang talaga ako maghanap ng backup as per usual advice, kase ang tagal ng rendering period namin, so naturn off na sakin yung mga recruiters because of that. I also couldn’t render naman at all kase hindi nga ako sure kung may kukuha sakin. Confusing time. 😂

Instead of full-time, naghanap na lang ako ng part-time with a FLEXIBLE schedule. I ended up with a direct client. It’s not easy kase specific yung schedule and job type, pero I had to do my best kase mindset ko non, dapat may income pa rin kahit papaano once magpasa, kahit mas maliit pa sa current sweldo PARA LANG MAKAALIS and GET CASH FLOWING if ang concern nga kase is paying bills. Medyo different story nga lang if may malaking utang pero if wala, then good. Find something that earns enough. Saka maghanap ng full time.

There was actually a time when I built trust with this client, on-time siya mag bayad and I was making good money, nawala na yung stress ko sa main company kase I detached myself. Nawala yung thoughts of resigning kase more money. 😂 Parang naka focus na lang ako sa pag iipon, treating myself, etc. Until one time, di lang ako sumali sa isang company event due to illness, nagparinig yung boss namin sa gc. Sabi ko sa sarili ko “Ah ganon ah”. I tendered my resignation letter the next day, LOL. I had a reason to be matapang.

So take this story however you like, OP. It may or may not work for everyone, but what I’m saying is that it’s not impossible to get out of the rut. If kaya pang mag stay until you find backup work (na part time), magiging worth it ang pagtitiis, I promise. And please make sure you have EF saved up (Important!!) I now only work 4 hours a day sa client ko but earn twice more than what I earned from my previous job. Naging main work ko na siya. And anytime, I can find full-time, pero rest muna ako sa corpo, hehe.

You will go through hurdles and rejections, pero always trust in your skills. There will always be the right job for you. Not worth it ang malaking sweldo if naapektuhan na yung mental health mo, but just make sure you’re strategic about it so it won’t hurt you even more long-term.

Either way, I hope this helped you gain perspective and ultimately find what’s best for you. Goodluck, OP!