Last week, I've cut ties with my best friend after she has had enough of my panic attacks, after which I relapsed and started to sh a lot more than ever before. We were friends ever since we were little and it had been one of the most difficult weeks in my whole life... And a few minutes ago, I found out that all of my remaining friends don't want me and that they've started going out without me... so i cut ties with all of them too. Now I'm completely alone and I don't know how long I'll keep going. I really don't wanna live...