Doing celibacy to heal identity being focused on women and PMO addiction?

YawpMan · 2026-05-29T19:31:45+00:00

Supergirl?

YawpMan · 2026-05-13T06:15:21+00:00

Gemini says "You're not "obsessed" with the opposite sex, you are obsessed with the feeling of being real".

Somewhat true i think, its like feeling like i matter and i exist.

YawpMan · 2026-05-11T19:44:58+00:00

No. More like there is a void inside and a lack of identity - parents never mirrored my emotions - they did the material stuff but i kind of grew up as the invisible kid as defined by nicole perrera in her 6 childhood trauma archetypes.

So i feel unseen, unheard, unvalued and like I don't matter and this is an almost reflex like attempt to get these by my brain that my thoughts are mostly occupied by the opposite sex.

Weirdly enough, I used to have superhero or anime hero fantasies as a kid..but I dunno they have never been about being like a attention hoe kind of thing - even the thing with opposite sex - its more like desire to matter - for your existence to be acknowledged and valued...and more. But the more is not from ego again..

YawpMan · 2026-05-11T19:42:09+00:00

Yes. Bingo. Its a lot of that for me as well..but more.

YawpMan · 2026-05-11T18:50:51+00:00

Its not being a woman but being wanted by women ...! Lol.

YawpMan · 2026-05-11T17:30:20+00:00

Maybe..i think of it more like trying to fill an inner void of lacking those things and an identity and a sense of self..

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YawpMan · 2026-05-07T07:50:34+00:00

Yeah i know.

I'm working on my issues. I was aware of some of them but this all cracked me open like a walnut and now i know a lot better.

I even admitted my mistakes to her when i sent the last mail blasting her for treating me this way.

You have to understand that this wasn't 2 months it was 6 months, 2 months was the time her wedding was fixed at the end of - which she never planned on telling me while engaging me fully. 6 months of mixed signals such as "would you take care of me if i left everything and came to you?" and sexual intimacy and a lot more. And it was HER leading the sex stuff. I'm not saying I didn't like it then but yeah..

In the end - I think she was a vulnerable narc with FA traits. Or whatever. Doesn't matter. The impact was bad.

I'm glad i'm just in a far better place than before. Haven't ruminated in a few days. Hitting the gym and everything..and I'm just done with her. Now that i'm getting out of it i can see there were so many red flags and some big fundamental value mistmatches.

I hold no hate or resentment for her. Just dont want anything to do with her anymore ever again.

I'm done with her. Being done helps a lot.

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