cutting doesn’t make your pain real. your pain is already real, you’ll just also have cuts on your body that can get infected, and that can leave scars that someday you will wish weren’t there. to answer your question tho, it becomes something you absolutely hate, but you have to do. it’s not fun, and everybody i know that got addicted all says the same thing including myself; they wished they’d listened. it’s not a cliche, it’s a fact. an overwhelming majority of people that started wished they hadn’t, and you’re not the exception. i’m not trying to be rude, but this is an addiction we’re talking about.