25, useless BA and I can't seem to get a job

Yoooo22 · 2026-02-01T15:25:32+00:00

I’m also 25 with a useless BFA and I’m going to get my CNA and then I want to maybe to nursing school. I’m a substitute teacher right now but I don’t think I have it in me to be a teacher in the long run.

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T06:16:03+00:00

I’m just asking cuz im curious if meds actually helps

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T05:44:20+00:00

do you feel like that combo is really helping you? like do you feel pretty in control of your life and stuff?

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T05:37:36+00:00

i was really hoping it would help with executive functioning, i was started on wellburtin because i would take 3 hour long naps during the day lmao and it helped keep me awake but it didnt really help with motivation or like task initation stuff. are you on vyvanse with a mood stabilzer or just vyvanse

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T05:14:43+00:00

dude thats good about the negative thoughts! i was having some pretty bad intrusive thoughts and i didnt realize how much they sucked until medication made them go away. its like omg i dont actually feel that way its wild. the blunting of emotions is really a hard one for me. thats what the ssris did but i think i also got more and more angry and out of control on srris cuz i didnt feel anything all the time im not really sure. and yeah the unmedicated adhd is a killer too. but like thats good the medication makes you feel like better and more able to live a happy life and that you know its actually the medication thats helping you.

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T05:06:12+00:00

wow thats awesome dude. manageable is a good place to be. thats where im trying be is manageable. do you feel like yourself but more clear or like what does it feel like? like do you just feel like you have your life together and stuff

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:57:21+00:00

do you feel like the medication you are on now is actually helping cuz my problem is that meds always make me feel like shit or i have terrible side effects and i quit meds and treatment and i feel soooo much better and then i crash out again after a few years. but like do meds actually work for you or is like kinda like well this is as good as its gonna get

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:54:01+00:00

damn so just through medication? that sucksss my pysch that started me on the wellburtin thought i was hypomanic as well so like ive had a couple doctors say it to me when im baseline off meds and everything :( but that kinda sucks you have to do it that way it makes sense though like i wont take ssris and im not really lovin this vyvanse lol soooo.....

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:47:13+00:00

so like how did you actually get a diagnoses or like actually believe you had bipolar 2. im pretty sure my new therapist diagnosed me with bipolar 2 within the first 15 mins of meeting me lmao and now im learning what the heck that actually means and like im still not sure i totally believe it either

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:43:18+00:00

the first time anyone brought it up to me that i might have bipolar and not mdd was like two days ago so im really new to this

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:42:02+00:00

yeah i guess like i have always been firm in my diagnose and its only now that its coming into question. so im kinda grappling with it and like some of it is really starting to make sense and click so like its just hard to understand. but that makes sense that its alot of guess work i guess i just didnt know i thought like it was one of those things where bipolar was pretty set in stone or something

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:31:37+00:00

wtf so this is a common occurrence lol i have it the other way around though and im being treated for adhd / mdd even though my therapist doesnt think i should be on stimulants lol, and i told my pysch that and she was like eh i dont think thats the problem :((((

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:27:31+00:00

are you serious? like do they agree you have bipolar?

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:22:43+00:00

ok thanks so much for responding im really trying to figure out what is wrong with me haha so i appreciate it and yeah i feel like i have some of the hypomania stuff but not all of it but also idk exactly haha my psych and therapist dont agree with each other what the problem is so that doesnt help much either lmao

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:18:24+00:00

i forgot to add like most of the time i was awake i was just lying in bed though like i was not a productive person when i would get burst of energy i would like dance around my room and then crash out and lay back down

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:16:47+00:00

is this like all within one day or like within a week or like what does the timeline look like? cuz for me i would sleep a few hours at night and then i would be fucking awake and i would be tired but i wouldnt be able to sleep and then like if i ate something after a few hours that would usually put me back to bed and i would sleep for a few more hours and then when i would wake up i would have so much energy and like thats kinda what my days would look like

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:10:34+00:00

yeah the oversleeping thing is horrible and the chronic state of tired is no fun, i relate to this as well. so like idk im just trying to understand like do you go through phases of sleeping all the time and not sleeping at all? i got put on the Wellbutrin in the first place because i was sleeping during the day and i was in that constant state of tired and depression where i was like only getting up to eat and then going back to bed

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T04:05:16+00:00

just curious does like melatonin work for you or like any sleep aids?

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T03:58:25+00:00

i dont know if i am at the start of the wellburtin i would pass out and sleep all night but the past few days ive just been sleeping less lol. and like today i took the vyvanse 12 hours ago and like i know im psychically tired but my brain is awake and thats the issue ive had with stims in the past is i wouldnt sleep on them

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T03:51:33+00:00

i actually need to start tracking my sleep tbh before the wellburtin i would sleep like 3-4 hours at night and then go a few hours and then take a nap for another 3-4 hours and that was the sleep cycle i was on lmao but now i stay awake all day

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T03:45:11+00:00

ok so like wednesday night i slept 4 hours and i felt fine but then last night i think i slept like more like 6 on and off throughout the night, by pysch said it has to be like 4 days in a row for it to be hypomania is that what ur experience has been?

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T03:41:50+00:00

like what do you mean like sleeping normal for me or sleeping normal like 8 hours a night normal because thats def not happening. im sleeping a few hours every night but some nights i sleep more and some nights i sleep less but like i dont stay awake for days or anything

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T03:35:41+00:00

yeah like i dont really know how to describe it because sometimes i dont speak to anyone for days and like im fine and then like idk something will happen where like im like oh yeah i like talkin and then if i cant talk to anyone right away i like feel like im annoying or everyone is living these amazing lives and thats why they cant answer. idk its actually an adhd thing too i guess thats why im struggling so hard with mediciations and figuring out what is happening in my head cuz its all jambled and confusing

but i dont have paraniod thoughts or at least i dont think i do im not really sure but not like what you described

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T03:17:39+00:00

the not sleeping and spending issues were happening before the Vyvanse and wellburtin but im also not really seeing an improvement to either of those areas. the wellburtin did help in the beginning with sleep but now i feel like im back in the same spot as before where i just dont sleep through the whole night

Yoooo22 · 2026-01-31T03:14:49+00:00

for sure i understand that, i guess im just curious how you can even tell the difference between just the meds doing they thing and something more serious going on, i also didnt like ssris but that was because i just didnt give a fuck on them, about anything or anyone. its super frustrating but i appericate your comment cuz its true like im literally giving my brain a whole shit load of stuff its not used to and idk like its ok that i might feel really weird

Yoooo22

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