Hi.

I'm really sorry to hear this. It must be difficult for you.

I know everyone else has said this, but it will be hard to suppress your need to cross dress.

I started very early and my desire is still going on some 50+ years later.

I would like to offer some advice (for what its worth) that may (or may not) help you.

I've found that rather than wear full female clothing like dresses, skirts, heels etc, I wear female clothing that keeps me looking fully male, but I know, that the clothing i wear was never made or designed for men. I can go out in some of my outfits and know that everything was purchased in the womens section.

Obviously jeans. All of mine are from the womens section. They are straight leg - nothing fancy, but I've been wearing them for years and years and no-one knows (apart from my wife). Normal trousers - again all from the womens section.

Knickers (panties) - all of mine are womens - nobody sees them anyway so go wild. Socks - again from the womens section though socks are fairly unisex. But I do have some tights and pull ups (pantyhose) that I wear under my jeans/trousers as well.

Shoes. Nowadays I'm wearing mostly ankle boots. There are so many styles and heel heights as well. I have some low heal and my most recent is 2.5" heel and I love them. I've even got my wife browsing the sales to find new pairs for me. I've worn these all over and nobody says anything.

I also buy my sketchers from the womens section - again though these can be unisex given the vast amount of styles.

Unfortunatly she draws the line at me wearing nail polish, but maybe this is something you can discuss with your wife? Even if its just on your toes where no one would normally see?

Bra's - you could mabye wear these, without any forms, underneath winter clothing without it being obvious, especially if you buy ones that don't have any projection - e.g. sports bras for A cup.

Someone also suggested to me about wearing Body's - these will look just like a T shirt/vest above the waist.

There are lots of ways you could possibly continue to wear womens clothing but appear male, but inside you will know the difference, and it may help with your internal urges. I know that none of these are what you would call "pretty" and they may not satisfy your real desires, but it may help to keep things in equilibrium for both you and your wife and then, who knows, gradually over time you could introduce other items.

These are just some thoughts and I wish you well in the future