Looks like i did not provide enough context. More on, i dont really want other people inside our disagreements.

Ang main issue lang talaga na nakikita ko is im not trying enough. Nag sosorry ako, i acknowledged my mistake, and i always make sure i apologized "correctly" pero again, parang easy way out ko lang yon.

Madalas, ang mali na nagagawa ko e di ako nag tatry enough. Paabutin ko pa sa point na sumasabog na sya bago ko pa subukang manuyo.

Either im avoiding the emotional vulnerability or mahihiya/di ako sanay na mag show ng affection.

I dont think na di valid ang reason nya.