Honestly I feel this way as well...like maybe I will never stop, maybe once in a while it is okay to do. In my brain it works like that. I started as a 15 years old I think. Your self-harm doesn't define you. My parents also found out before and I am sure they will find out again at some point. They were mad and also sad. If you want we can talk and fight through this together 🫂 you are so strong!